[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I dont know, just assumed it was related to my DID diagnosis considering the memory problems involved.

I can remember pieces of my childhood more than something 3 days ago. Its like as my life passes, the moments behind me become a fog. While i can remember the jest of some things, any details are gone, and uts a struggle to remember anything. Maybe its my constant thinking about memory, its erasing itself idk.

Along with this i feel no connection to many things and people that i should. I remember their faces, vague details of them, but i dont feel connected or that i ever was. Its hard to even remember what i wore or did yesterday. And the things im trying to remember today but cant, could be sharp memories tomorrow. And things i can remember today, could be foggy or gone tomorrow.

I feel like im going crazy, feel like im going to lose my memory all together one day. I dont know what to think about this, it worries me.

[LouR]

I don't know how I can comfort you but I think your awesome with your kind comments to me and others on this forum
Chin up Purple Flying Monkeys. You are smart, You are kind and You are important!
Big Hugs to you
Lou

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

Thank you louR, you are very kind, your comment means a lot to me :-)

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I dont know, just assumed it was related to my DID diagnosis considering the memory problems involved.

I can remember pieces of my childhood more than something 3 days ago. Its like as my life passes, the moments behind me become a fog. While i can remember the jest of some things, any details are gone, and uts a struggle to remember anything. Maybe its my constant thinking about memory, its erasing itself idk.

Along with this i feel no connection to many things and people that i should. I remember their faces, vague details of them, but i dont feel connected or that i ever was. Its hard to even remember what i wore or did yesterday. And the things im trying to remember today but cant, could be sharp memories tomorrow. And things i can remember today, could be foggy or gone tomorrow.

I feel like im going crazy, feel like im going to lose my memory all together one day. I dont know what to think about this, it worries me.

I am sorry you feel like that. I have some of the same issues. I was told to write in a journal. The only problem with that is that some of us don't write or don't want to write in a journal. The longest journal I had was almost six months. It never worked for me. When I started with my present t she said it was ok if I emailed her with my thoughts. I have been doing that for two plus years. Not every day, not even every week, but when ever I felt like I needed to hold on to a thought or I was in a panic. The other day I went back and read some of the emails I sent her. I couldn't get through all of them because I started to get triggered. But I never would have kept that stuff in a journal or written it down when I was going through it. Maybe your t will let you send emails when you have something on your mind. I think it helps with the communication between my t and is a history of my thoughts for me. I hope this helps. Feel better.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I dont know, just assumed it was related to my DID diagnosis considering the memory problems involved.

I can remember pieces of my childhood more than something 3 days ago. Its like as my life passes, the moments behind me become a fog. While i can remember the jest of some things, any details are gone, and uts a struggle to remember anything. Maybe its my constant thinking about memory, its erasing itself idk.

Along with this i feel no connection to many things and people that i should. I remember their faces, vague details of them, but i dont feel connected or that i ever was. Its hard to even remember what i wore or did yesterday. And the things im trying to remember today but cant, could be sharp memories tomorrow. And things i can remember today, could be foggy or gone tomorrow.

I feel like im going crazy, feel like im going to lose my memory all together one day. I dont know what to think about this, it worries me.

you are not going crazy, it may feel that way at times but the reality is that in ****general****memory problems happen for many mental and physical health reasons and sometimes for no reason at all.. some things that can affect a persons memory is their age when the memory happened, how they perceived what was happening at the moment that it happened, stress, anxiety, depression, medication, amount of sleep a person gets, the kinds of foods and what kind of diet they are one, medical problems like anemia and other physical health problems come with memory problems, medications can sometimes cause a person to have memory problems as can drugs and alcohol, even the age of the adult can come with memory problems.. gosh I could go on forever listing all the different reasons that I and people I know that have had/presently have memory problems...

my suggestion maybe you can keep a journal about those memories you are having problems with and then take that to your treatment providers when you get the chance to see them, they will be able to tell you whether this is happening to you because of your DID or if theres other reasons behind it.

I have the same thing!!!

It may be a symptom of DID, but I can't be too sure...

Do you ever feel different when you think of things? Such as, a faceless person becoming apparent... Do you see their face and get mixed emotions???

Maybe we should chat or something? Send me a PM if you need someone to talk to c: It would be great for me too <3

Stay strong! <3

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

Thank you all for the wonderful advice. Just got out of my session with t... was helpful but im in a funny place right now. Kind of out of it... here but numb and dont remember much of what was said. Well not once we started talking about Dad. Kinda fuzzy i guesd.will write more tonight

[Silversand]

Hi. I feel like that a lot. At first, i didnt really realize how it was. But after being in therapy for 7 yrs, i know that my life is like a night of heavy drinking...i remember bits and pieces. FOr a long time, i denied i lost time, but now realize i do. I just didn't realize i did since this all seems normal to me.
I have no memory of elementary school. Cannot remember any teacher. My memories start at about 7 yrs old. Still, none involve school except one in the fifth grade - but it was like i was dropped in, then dropped out again. All i remember is seeing a teacher with red hair. Don't remember her name. Recently, my others have told T that i was created when the body was 7. Freaky, i want to deny everything.
I don't remember my sister's wedding, though i was her maid of honor. When i look at the photos, i can't remember them.

When T asks how have things gone this week, it's like a fog. I think and say i guess okay because i can't really remember, yet is seems like a continuity, like i have been here, normal...i think there is continuity but things have come out that there hasn't been. T says he thinks part of my job is not to remember, to forget...so i can keep functioning in the outside world
that's my expereince. not sure if it helps.
take care
the one called Silvergirl

[fibereagle]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I dont know, just assumed it was related to my DID diagnosis considering the memory problems involved.

I can remember pieces of my childhood more than something 3 days ago. Its like as my life passes, the moments behind me become a fog. While i can remember the jest of some things, any details are gone, and uts a struggle to remem's prettyber anything. Maybe its my constant thinking about memory, its erasing itself idk.

Along with this i feel no connection to many things and people that i should. I remember their faces, vague details of them, but i dont feel connected or that i ever was. Its hard to even remember what i wore or did yesterday. And the things im trying to remember today but cant, could be sharp memories tomorrow. And things i can remember today, could be foggy or gone tomorrow.

I feel like im going crazy, feel like im going to lose my memory all together one day. I dont know what to think about this, it worries me.

I feel that. It's pretty scarry. Do you want to talk about it?

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I can't explain how thankful I am for all of your replies. I tried to bring this up with t but it was at the end of the appointment. He said we will go over it some more next week but just assured me I wasn't losing my memory or going out of my mind.

And now, after just talking to a guest I got really really bad feeling, and it keeps coming back... I guess my session with t today didn't go as well as I thought, I've been getting worse as the day progresses.

I hate this feeling, I never know if it's going to be an easy switch or come out looking like a seizure and I'm at work so gaaaah.....

[squish08]

I am sorry you are experiencing that! I feel the same way, I feel like a 28-year-old with dementia. EVERYTHING is a fog. I had ECT in March, so I am hoping it is just the aftermath and it will get better soon, but it is super scary!!! I feel like I try so hard to remember, but nothing is there. Or I feel like it is there or my thoughts are racing, but I just can't hear them?!?! It is so weird. I do not know much about dissassociation, but my new T specializes in it, so of course that is what she attributes it to.

[designer]

we all agree about the memory loss stuff - I had to answer questions today about stuff and I finally just said, If I can't remember 20 years of my life, and I lose time and stuff, then how am I suppossed to answer you and your questions. Then she said, "Just guess!" crazy

normally, if another part was up - one wont remember all the events

[Gr3tta]

sometimes i think that events go through a sort of processing center in my mind where i'm somehow deciding if i'm going to remember or not. i think everyday, mundane occurrences might sometimes get caught up there. if they pass inspection i'll remember them later.