[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello,

My name is SnowBird and I think I have been here before. I'm not sure because everything is confusing right now. I am not sure what is real and what isn't real.

There was a note in my journal saying that I could come here and talk to people and that it was safe. I talked to Mr.***** (I'm not supposed to say his name) this morning and he said it was okay to come here.

I just wanted to say hi and see if I could make friends here. I don't have any friends. The bad man makes them all go away. And there is another man, I think my dad gave me to him, or he might not be real - like I said, reality and my pretend world are getting mixed up. I made up pretend people and pretend places because no one ever talked to me nicely so I made my own people to talk to.

But, it's all mixed up now and now I am scared and feel like everyone is bad. But, Mr.******* said that it was okay to be scared and he would help me. I don't know where he is. And now I'm lonely. And sad. And confused.

SnowBird (that's not my real name, but I'm not supposed to say what it is. That's what the note said. I don't know who wrote it. I think one of my pretend friendsl. But, how do pretend people write stuff down? That's why I'm confused and I think I went too far with my pretending and now I have gone crazy, really.) So, maybe there is no one here. I don't know.

Hi Snowbird. I want to be your friend. I understand how you feel. I feel the same way.

Things get really confusing for me too. You know, Mr. ***** sounds like a really nice person. I woulndt worry too much if hes real or not, it sounds like you enjoy him and hes good to you, so I would just leave it at that for the time being. Im sure you will figure it out but the important thing is that you have a good time with him.

Sweetie why wouldnt god send you an angel? And you know what, sometimes angels come in many many different forms. Sometimes they can be humans or animals or even make beleive friends.

[LILITH]

Hello Snowbird, my name is Samantha, I am 16 years old. I don't have a lot of friends but want to get some. I like to drive and go to the movies.... I have to be good because, if not I get in trouble... I like to play basketball I am good.....do you play how old are you.
Bye!

[stormgirl]

Hi Snowbird
My name is Rosie and I do not have any friends. Mostly I just read books in the back and be sad because all the others have friends. Sometimes I play with one of the others but she plays with everyone cause everyone loves her but they do not love me and that is why I do not have any friends.

I am happy today for one of the first times and that is just because of reading your writing and knowing that i am not the only one who wants some friends.

I think I don't have friends because I can be a bit naughty and break some things sometimes

Can I be your friend please
Rosie Posy

[stormgirl]

Hi Samantha
You must be VERY tall to be able to play basketball. We are tooooooooooooooooooooooooo VERY short to play basket ball but think it is a fun game.
Rosie

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello,

I would like it if you were my friend. I think that would be nice.

I never thought of angels coming in different forms. At first, Mr****** had wings, now he doesn't. He sits in a big black chair and sometimes he sits on the floor because he is very tall and doesn't want to scare me. So, I guess he could be an angel.

Maybe this is a place of angels? I did smile when I saw you wrote me. And you are right, it doesn't matter if anyone is real or not. We are here now and I am enjoying talking to someone who doesn't make me feel bad or criticize me or want uncomfortable things from me.

Can I meet you back here sometime? What should I call you?

SnowBird

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello Samantha,

I am 14 years old. I try to play basketball at school, I really did, but the kids laughed at me. They are always laughing at me. Just like at home, and criticizing. I like to play handball and am pretty good at that. I also like to draw people.

I have to be good too. I like to be invisible because then others won't notice me at home. It doesn't always work, that's why I hide in the closet.

I have never been to the movies and don't drive yet. I think I would like to drive away when I do learn how to drive. I imagine being on a horse and riding through the hills where there is no one else around. I like to be outside.

I would like to be your friend. If you want to talk to me, just come to this one that has my name on top and we can talk!

Bye,
SnowBird

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello Rosie,

I like to read books too. I get lost in the books and they are happy places, not like here. I am happy that I made you smile. I like to make people smile and I would like to be your friend. It's okay if you break things sometimes. I hurt myself sometimes - I don't know why. I guess breaking things and hurting yourself is the same think, kind of.

Maybe we can talk here instead of doing those things. You can tell me why you're upset and I will tell you why I am upset. That's what friends do, I think. I'm not sure. I see on tv that is what they do. They also share other stuff, but I'm not ready to do that yet. I don't even tell Mr.******* about that stuff. He is very tall and sits in a big black chair. Sometimes he sits on the floor so I won't be afraid.

I also like to write poetry and write stories about happy things and my make believe friends. I draw pictures of people and even have ribbons from the fair and had some of my work hand in a gallery for a student competition. I was so proud. My mom went with me. My dad didn't care, he only said I could do better. My sisters didn't care either because of my dad. My brothers, they are kind of like me, they don't exist. I think that is a good thing because then they can't get hurt. I was hurt for a very long time and still do but I don't want to talk about that.

Maybe I can share some of my poems. Would you like that?

Bye,
SnowBird

[stormgirl]

Dear SnowBird

Thankyou for writing back to me. It is the frist time anyone has ever written to me, I feel happy to have someone write to me.

I am 12 and used to live on a farm with lots of horses. I liked to ride them but was also scared of them if they went to fast.

You dad sounds like my dad because nothing i ever do is good enough and he thinks i can always do more and achieve more, that why i started hiding - because i would not cope with NEVER being good enough. But that is a story for a sad day and tonight is a happy night because you wrote to me

I would LIKE to read some of your poems very much, so please let me read them. I bet they are really good and very special. What are they about are their any about cats. I like cats. I have two cats.

We have people who hurt themselves mostly by sharp things and hitting things, so we know all about that. I don't hurt myself but i do break things mostly by mistake but sometimes on purpose because no one will notice me and I just want to be noticed. No one understands this.

I have to go to bed now or I will be in trouble again. thankyou for being my friend and i will wait for you to let me read your poems.

night
Rosie

[bipolar_bear]

Snowbird I too hide in the closet sometimes for long periods of time. I would like to be your friend. I like poetry and would like to read yours. If you want another friend I am here. It sounds like you have lots of friends here. I don't know if someone can have too many.

[LILITH]

Hi Rosie I am glad you said you want to play with me....I lke playing. Write to me anytime
Samantha

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Hello,

I would like it if you were my friend. I think that would be nice.

I never thought of angels coming in different forms. At first, Mr****** had wings, now he doesn't. He sits in a big black chair and sometimes he sits on the floor because he is very tall and doesn't want to scare me. So, I guess he could be an angel.

Maybe this is a place of angels? I did smile when I saw you wrote me. And you are right, it doesn't matter if anyone is real or not. We are here now and I am enjoying talking to someone who doesn't make me feel bad or criticize me or want uncomfortable things from me.

Can I meet you back here sometime? What should I call you?

SnowBird

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Songbird,

I guess i havent really clarified that have I? hehe.

I am Mandie.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hi Mandie and Rosie

I'm confused tonight and it sisi jarfd to ghink. I want to ;lauy but its so confusidng.

I think i nededeed help;l.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

I itdon't' thinjk people liek me. i8t's okayl no one oeever liksees me.

I'm gingi otto go oaawwwey/.

I definetly like you.

Its ok honey Im here.

[LILITH]

I like you snowbird.....I tld yu dat....I want to play with you. Dont go away. I gona miss you. Samantha

[bipolar_bear]

I like you Snowbird. Please don't go away. We were just getting to know each other.

[stormgirl]

Hi SnowBird my friend

I hope you are feeling much better now. I was sad that you were in a hard place and needed some help. I hope that you got the help you needed cause you are such an awesome person that you deserve all the help and kindness that you can be allowed to get
Did you know that you helped me You might not know how unhappy i can be and all about the truth of what it is that makes me hide but when you wrote to me it was the frist time EVER that someone listened to me. I am only around now cause things are good with us if they were not good then all the others would be out and i would be hiding cause they tease me and i feel hurt my that. But no one is around except for me and someone that helped me to write some things.

I know someone that can do magic. I can ask them if they can help you with some magic if you like?

I amthinking of you my friend, my way-cool friend who likes to be in the outside and to read books.....you are special to me

Rosie

[stormgirl]

Hi Samantha

I think you are very kind and i really liked the picture that was with your writing.

It maked me laugh very much

rosie

[stormgirl]

hello mandie and the cutst little bear who i don't know your name

i am a friendof rosie the posy. but i cannot a say who i might be cause i only likd my real name itoday
i know magic
goodbye

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello Rainbowzz,

Snowbird here.

I never thought about angels coming in different forms. Would that make you an angel? You seem very nice.

I see Mr.******toomorrow and I'm nervous. My tummy is upset and I have a headache - a really bad one.

I haven't seen or heard him all week so I know he's not make believe because I called to him and he didn't come. But I know on Wednesday's I go to an office and he's always there.

But, I'm nervous and a little scared. What if he wants the same things the bad man wanted in his office? I asked Mr.**** and he promised me that he didn't. But I'm still scared.

Can you talk to me again?

Snowbird

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hi Rosie,

I've been hiding too. I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you, I've been away. Just pretending to ride a horse like the cowboys do - some place safe. All alone. It's safer alone.

I would very much like you to be my friend. I'm very sad right now and scared so maybe I can talk to you later.

Friends,
Snowbird

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello Bipolar Bear,

I really like your picture. I want to share my poetry but my head is pounding right now so I will do it later. I think I see Mr.***** tomorrow because I always see him on Wednesday. He lives in a nice office with purple paint on the walls and sits in a black chair. He has a very nice smile, but I can't figure out why he wants to help me. That's what he said, that he wants to help me.

No one has ever wanted to help me before. They only wanted bad stuff from me.

I like talking to all of my new friends. I never had friends. Especially fuzzy white ones.

Friends,
Snowbird (that's my secret name )

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello Mandie,

I'm sorry I didn't write you sooner. I have been hiding in my make believe place. Thank you for inviting me to stay. I think, maybe, I will. I like to have friends. It's scary because only bad people want me and they weren't my friends.

How old are you, Mandie? It doesn't really matter, I'm just curious. I ask a lot of questions because I like to know about everything about me. I hope that's okay.

My head really hurts so I can't talk long. I have to write to my other new friends here too. But, I like your name and would like to be your friend. I'm not always here - I like to pretend a lot and go to safe places in my mind. Once I'm there, I usually don't come out for a while. But, I think I see Mr. ****** tomorrow because it's Wednesday and I always see him around on Wednesday.

Friends,
Snowbird

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Hello Samantha,

It feels kind of nice to know that you will miss me. I won't go away, though, I decided. I was away. A lot of the time I go to make believe places in my mind and don't come back for awhile. It's safer that way and I feel better when I'm in my make believe places.

I'm glad you like me. Not many people do - only for bad reasons. The kids at school don't play with me. That makes me very sad. I am very sad tonight because I think I have to see Mr.******* tomorrow. If I see him, it's always on a Wednesday and tomorrow is Wednesday. He says he's my friend and wants to help but he still scares me.

I think, after my headache goes away, I will write everyone here a poem. I think you are all very nice.

Friends,
Snowbird