[kazine]

There's the problem that my boyfriend is such a nice guy, he is in no way going to be able to be what Sophie wants - aka sexual violence etc. I've talked to him about allowing Sophie to be with other people, he pretty much said no way. I talked about how if that wasn't possible we might have to break up and he really doesn't want that either. Nor do I to be honest. I had a break down two days ago because I feel like, because of Sophie, I never get to feel happy and in a safe relationship without her ****ing it up every time. I was very happy when I first got with my BF because I'd just gotten out of an abusive relationship and he said he'd never hurt me....... Plus I've liked him for a long time...

But Sophie can't bear not being in an abusive relationship. To the point where it causes me severe stress... I'm starting to get so stressed out by it that I'm sinking into depression, starting to think suicide is my only way out, because the psychotherapist I saw doesn't want to give me therapy because he doesn't wanna **** up my university... But I can't handle university at the minute... I have seminar prep to do for tomorrow but I just feel too ****ing miserable I can't handle it... Starting to wish I was dead instead. I feel so lost.

Kaz x

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by kazine

There's the problem that my boyfriend is such a nice guy, he is in no way going to be able to be what Sophie wants - aka sexual violence etc. I've talked to him about allowing Sophie to be with other people, he pretty much said no way. I talked about how if that wasn't possible we might have to break up and he really doesn't want that either. Nor do I to be honest. I had a break down two days ago because I feel like, because of Sophie, I never get to feel happy and in a safe relationship without her ****ing it up every time. I was very happy when I first got with my BF because I'd just gotten out of an abusive relationship and he said he'd never hurt me....... Plus I've liked him for a long time...

But Sophie can't bear not being in an abusive relationship. To the point where it causes me severe stress... I'm starting to get so stressed out by it that I'm sinking into depression, starting to think suicide is my only way out, because the psychotherapist I saw doesn't want to give me therapy because he doesn't wanna **** up my university... But I can't handle university at the minute... I have seminar prep to do for tomorrow but I just feel too ****ing miserable I can't handle it... Starting to wish I was dead instead. I feel so lost.

Kaz x

the only thing I can say to you that I or others havent already said on this issue is you probably already know suicide is ****not**** the answer, otherwise you would have done so instead of posting here.

Im glad you chose to post instead.. here is a hotline in england /the UK that deals with suicide. Maybe they can help you with face to face therapy too.

http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you