Lost

I haven't seen t in almost a month. 1. i don't know if i want to go any more and 2. i don't have money for gas to see her and she is over hour a way. so we are email each other.
Im having problems with this lady i live with. she is like driving me nuts. Today she was writting a check and she messed up on the amount so i said just put a line through the number and inital and rewrite it . she started to and then got really really peeved and scribbled on it and started yelling what is wrong with me. then she writes another one. later on she said to me that i do this all the time around the holidays that is... "complain and whine that i don't have a purpose and no future and that i feel lost" I told her i new that and that i have been doing it before she met me.
The thing is I am on SSI. I don't even have enough money to pay all my bills. she pays some of them. SO there for i do not have a way out. I cant even pay what HUD would want me to pay. This womans son also wants me out of here when this lady dies. I don't know what to do.ALSO... ALter wrote to thearpist saying i would be seeing her 1x a week. However i do not hav gas money . not even to see her every other wk. So there for no therapy. I don't know what i would see her for anyways. I feel trapped confused and lost . i don't know what to do or where to go. i dont see my self as having a purpose even though i have a master's degree in social work. I can't seem to find a job and the last job i had i quiet because i was having problems with the people i was working with or they where having problems with me. any advice would be great. thanks all.

I think it might help if you try to find a mental health clinic close to where you live. I know it is not easy to start again with another t but you need a back up for when you can't get to your present t. A lot of communities have low cost mental health programs. You can contact SSI and see if they know of one in your area. Or you can ask you regular doctor, or you can call your local social service department and ask them if they know of a low cost mental health clinic near you. You wouldn't have to go there forever but it would be good if you had help near by.