Struggling

My alter and me are near polar opposites we used to fight so badly our freinds thought we would end up killing eachother, sometimes, someone is trying to talk to me like they know me even though im SHURE i never met them, i think i have more then "her"...but...i dont know...why is life always such a difficult mess..

Dissociative Disorders can sure make life a mess!! I've got two alters who cannot agree that are causing problems right now. They are polar opposites, like what you are describing. On top of it I really need the help and influence of one of them right now, and the other is blocking.

I really get your frusatration. A few times in the past few weeks I've felt so depressed I just felt like I couldn't stand it any longer.

The answer, I know, is in finding common ground - and I know that's not easy and sometimes seems impossible. But your alter is there to protect you and help you in some way, albiet, probably an outmoded way. I am assuming that you are in therapy.(?) Go into your safe place and convince her that you need her cooperation and find some of her skills that enhance your life and thank her for those traits and skills. I'm not trying to make this sound like a quick and easy out for the problem. It sometimes takes time to establish cooperation and trust. Other times the alter is so moved and emotional and thankful about being acknowledged for the good job she/he did for you when you needed her/him, and for the good useful traits she/he can share and enrich your life with, that they become very coopertive and helpful to you.

Probably this is not news to you but I thought I'd mention it to you just in case. If you haven't already created a safe place in your mind, that's a very important thing to have with DID.