[InfiniteSadness]

And I don't know how to "snap" out of it... I take medication but it only helps minimally. I'm always left feeling soooooo WEIRD all the time... I can't really even describe it. Its like a huge detachment from everything/everyone. Like i'm not really 'here.' Its so hard to live like this, and experience normal feelings like everyone else. I just feel so 'dead'.

[littlemick]

Originally Posted by InfiniteSadness

And I don't know how to "snap" out of it... I take medication but it only helps minimally. I'm always left feeling soooooo WEIRD all the time... I can't really even describe it. Its like a huge detachment from everything/everyone. Like i'm not really 'here.' Its so hard to live like this, and experience normal feelings like everyone else. I just feel so 'dead'.

I need to know so much.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by InfiniteSadness

And I don't know how to "snap" out of it... I take medication but it only helps minimally. I'm always left feeling soooooo WEIRD all the time... I can't really even describe it. Its like a huge detachment from everything/everyone. Like i'm not really 'here.' Its so hard to live like this, and experience normal feelings like everyone else. I just feel so 'dead'.

On and off I have gone through extended periods of feeling like I am not connected to the world. Like I am moving in it but not a part of it. When I am this way I feel emotionless, sometimes like I am floating. I used to change my situation when I got this way. I would go to the beach or to the gym. Sometimes I would call someone just to try to feel connected. I have had this as far back as I can remember. Sense getting into therapy I have learned that these are dissociative, derealization and depersonalizationepisodes. Now, when I am able to remember, I use ice or something else to ground myself. I also think my anxiety medication helps me to be more receptive to grounding. When I ground myself I feel a fog disperse from around me and suddenly my feet are back on the ground. I feel fearful but connected. Maybe you need to learn more grounding techniques. Maybe that will help.

[Catlovers141]

I experience something quite similar. It can be really frustrating sometimes. I think that Claritytoo had some good suggestions; I just wanted to add another thought: Sometimes it is hard to see that grounding techniques are working because dissociation is partly a physiological mechanism that can take time to go away even with grounding. Honestly, what works best for me is time. Sometimes episodes are really bad and I can barely move or talk, but if I try to keep myself comfortable and have something pleasant to do, slowly the dissociation gets better.

[InfiniteSadness]

Yeah, I can relate, I also feel very dumb and unaware... which makes it worse.

[skeksi]

Oh, I so understand this. I hate the floaty, disconnected. different feeling. Grounding does help me, in time. My T used to encourage me to try something and notice if I felt a *tiny* but more connected and grounded...and then another...over time I can get so I feel pretty present.

It's a pain to deal with.

(((((hugs)))))

i'm sorry that you feel this way