neeeervous as old heck.

We'll be with you in spirit!

I'll be the flower behind your ear!

Oh pet.

I just dont know whats going to happen.

half of us want to come out and tell the new doc everything, and the other half are screaming not to tell anything. And then I worry that either she will see through me, or not be able to see through me. Im not sure what I want

Im also afraid I might just open the torrential downpour by saying things. Im scaredscaredscared.

I'll need you all afterwards tomorrow I will probably come home and come right here.

[Evangelista]

Good luck tommorrow Rainbowzz....many wishes that she will be gentle, kind, and caring...

[January]

I'll be the leaf hanging on your lapel!

Best wishes for everything good!

Hugs,

Jan

[bipolar_bear]

Know that you can cuddle the fuzzy white bear if it will help make you feel better. I'll be thinking of you.

I go through them yearly. you will do fine. you can find the general idea of what psych evals are like in my blog. I didn't list the suplimental tests beccause they vary depending on which disorder and so on that they are looking for but it will give you a general idea of what to expect. The last one that I took was two weeks of testing and it took about 2 months for the typed report.

[Fuzzybear]

Good luck Rainbow, wishes that she treats you with the respect and care you deserve

well guys here I go.

I am shaking like a leaf.

(((( Bowzz ))))

It'll be okay.

We'll be right here when you get back.

Let us know when you can.

[Gemstone]

{{{{ Rainbowzz }}}}

((((((Rainbowzz))))))))))

[(JD)]

You know? We are who we are... the culmination of our experiences and our learning. Testing only allows OTHERS to know who we are and how we approach the world, in this case, to be able to help you, to find you where you are, and meet you there.

I'm sure you came out alive haven't heard of anyone not emerging from these things! (though they are NOT nice and are sometimes scary!)

Hi everyone.

I did in fact come out alive, albeit a little bit upset. I was getting a lot of what I call base dissociation (where others are not taking over but I sort of feel like I am in a bubble or a tunnel far far away and everything sort of fuzzes over)excuse my use of termage

I found out that today was the first part of six appointments to investigate, where I thought it was going to be all in one day. Pdoc is lovely, she is very nice... I dont trust her yet but I mean thats sort of figureable.

They are pulling my med records from my birthparents. Its scary.

Told pdoc about mood swings, anxiety attacks, previous PTSD diagnosis and various other issues. Hinted at dissociation but certainly wasnt comfortable enough to tell of DID diagnosis yet.. she will find out if she pulls my files previously I would guess

Took the rest of the day off work as I was dissociating afterwards pretty badly. I felt like I was in a vat of molasses. Could have easily gotten into an accident just crossing the road (came close one time - I walked out in the crosswalk without even realizing that the sign didnt say walk on a busy highway - thank god there was only one car and he stopped and honked)

Better and safer to be inside I think.

So, here I am. A little battle weary but not dead.

Littles are hiding.

Teen is sceptical. Doesn't like the "fancy woman." (she was wearing nice clothes and a pretty necklace) and doesnt trust her.

So, that is where I am at.

[Evangelista]

((Rainbowzz))...Glad that you made it thru the eval okay..and it sounds as if you did the best you could..so good to heart that the PDoc is nice..hope she takes extra special care of someone(s) special..and I am REALLY happy you did not end up as a hood ornament..crossing streets is dangerous nowadays even when your not dissociating..but its good that you took care of yourself(s) and did not go back to work after the appt..kudos to all inside for taking care of you and you them..

thank you evangelista.

Yes, I dont think i would make a good hood ornament. At - All.

(((((((((Rainbowzz))))))) Hang in there.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((rainbowzz))))))))))))))

I'm glad it went okay so far and that the doctor is nice. I understand about trust. That's a hard one for sure. Trust takes a while.

Good luck with the rest of the test. I'm thinking of you. Wishing you the best.