[come-on-eileen]

Hello, I'm new! I always felt there was some kind of odd feeling about myself ever since I recovered from depression/anxiety and all the bad **** that happened to me. Even my fellow workers have described me as odd (but fun too) which has got me thinking lately that maybe I do have a problem. So I come here to ask you guys what you think if you are happy to help!

For example I can be talking to my workers or customers one-to-one/group, interested and fully engaged into the topic, then suddenly I would space out for a few minutes till me or someone snaps me out. Then I'm like 'what were we talking about?' I wouldn't be daydreaming of anything, I just space out into nothingness. I've been told I don't pay attention a lot of the time and I was quite shock to hear that because I didn't realize how often it happened.

Often I feel like I'm not apart of my body - I ask myself is this really me? I move my arms, wave my hands sometimes to try a feel more connected to my body, but it just makes me feel more strange. At one point I have cut myself just to feel pain and alive. Even my surroundings feels detached - am I really here? Did I really traveled to get here? The other day I was driving my car and I almost got hit because I wasn't aware of my surroundings, once again I spaced off! (I rarely drive for that reason).

My memory is very poor and I constantly ask people the same questions over and over again until I get whatever I needed done. I don't remember much of my past, my entire past feels like a fog... even yesterday's memory I can't remember well. I can only remember people's faces/names and my relationship to them for the most part.

I spend most of my free time losing myself into the internet or watching movies. I have poor concentration, it does take a lot out of me to try and focus on one thing.

I don't think this is normal? It doesn't bother me too much but then maybe I should be showing some concern into it.

[shortandcute]

I space out quite a lot too. And I know exactly what you mean by not feeling like a part of your body--I often feel that way too. I remember I was about 8 when I started feeling that way (that I remember) and I asked my mom if I was a real person because I did not feel real. She thought I was kidding and busted up laughing.

As far as my past, I can remember quite a bit of it--but I can't remember things like what I had for dinner the night before, what I just said, where I just put my glasses, what I came into the room for, etc. I'm really bad at remembering people's names.

I don't drive at all for the very same reason.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by come-on-eileen

I don't think this is normal? It doesn't bother me too much but then maybe I should be showing some concern into it.

I think you need to be checked out. The memory problems can be due to either a dissociative type disorder or to cognitive difficulties. The feeling of not being part of the body hints at dissociation. So I would get it checked out.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by come-on-eileen

Hello, I'm new! I always felt there was some kind of odd feeling about myself ever since I recovered from depression/anxiety and all the bad **** that happened to me. Even my fellow workers have described me as odd (but fun too) which has got me thinking lately that maybe I do have a problem. So I come here to ask you guys what you think if you are happy to help!

For example I can be talking to my workers or customers one-to-one/group, interested and fully engaged into the topic, then suddenly I would space out for a few minutes till me or someone snaps me out. Then I'm like 'what were we talking about?' I wouldn't be daydreaming of anything, I just space out into nothingness. I've been told I don't pay attention a lot of the time and I was quite shock to hear that because I didn't realize how often it happened.

Often I feel like I'm not apart of my body - I ask myself is this really me? I move my arms, wave my hands sometimes to try a feel more connected to my body, but it just makes me feel more strange. At one point I have cut myself just to feel pain and alive. Even my surroundings feels detached - am I really here? Did I really traveled to get here? The other day I was driving my car and I almost got hit because I wasn't aware of my surroundings, once again I spaced off! (I rarely drive for that reason).

My memory is very poor and I constantly ask people the same questions over and over again until I get whatever I needed done. I don't remember much of my past, my entire past feels like a fog... even yesterday's memory I can't remember well. I can only remember people's faces/names and my relationship to them for the most part.

I spend most of my free time losing myself into the internet or watching movies. I have poor concentration, it does take a lot out of me to try and focus on one thing.

I don't think this is normal? It doesn't bother me too much but then maybe I should be showing some concern into it.

for some people this is normal and for others it isnt. only your treatment providers can say whether this is normal or not with you, based on your own history, type of meds you are on if any and many other issues you may have, it also depends upon what is considered not normal/normal in your own location. many locations cultures, religions .....have different laws, standards for what is and what isnt a mental disorder.

here in new York USA what you posted about can be many different mental / physical/ environmental and other problems.

for example everything you posted can fit with in symptoms for things like...stress, depression, anxiety, poor diet, lack of sleep, ADD, and just about every single mental disorder there is, not to mention many different physical health issues...

my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact a treatment provider in your off line location. they can help you discover what your problems are and how to fix them so you wont have these symptoms bothering you any more.