[Snoopy59]

Hi everyone. I hope someone can help me. I was at my therapist getting EMDR and two alters came out. I don't remember one of them but I do remember the one. She was a young girl and she whispered and told my T that there is a 'secret keeper' and that she is not ready to come out. It was very intense. Now I have one or two that come out every day for a little while. I think I am co conscience from what I've read but I want to know more about that.
I am still having a hard time accepting this and when I am ' normal' I question whether I am imagining or making this up. I see a psychiatrist weekly too. He's a talking D.O. In other words I don't see him for meds. I started seeing him last oct to deal with my childhood trauma/ abuse. I have a long history of drug abuse (opiates) and have been clean now for four months so my T and Psychiatrist tell me that it makes sense that my different parts are coming out now. What normally happens now? I've read that more may come out in therapy. Any information will be helpful. I'm still a little freaked out and there seems to be a personality that is depressed. I know that I feel bad knowing at my abuse is worse then I ever imagined. I have years of no memories as a young girl.
Thanks everyone.

[yellowted]

Welcome Snoopy59, what a great name! there are loads of great people on this site who have loads of experience in this, unfortunately i am not one as i don't have alters as such, but i am sure someone will give you some answers soon. Well done on being clean of opiates for so long, keep up the good work x

[Snoopy59]

thank you for the welcome, yellowtag!
I hope things are well with you

[jax01]

What happened for me right after I was diagnosed was I had a bit of a freak out.
I'm not saying you should or will have one. but a lot of people do. because it's a shock. Maybe not for everyone, but for me it was.
I think it's like being diagnosed with anything. It changes things. the way I saw myself changed.
It made me really have to accept that it was all real. Not only DID. which I knew already. but that the abuse really was "THAT bad." that it was done to me by someone who was supposed to protect me, and all of the things along those lines that I'll skip for triggering reasons.
And that some heavy excrement.
Knowing something intellectually. in your head. is much different than knowing it at heart.

The truth is this. you haven't changed. You had DID for most of your life. You just didn't know about it. but now you do. Now you can do something about it. A diagnosis doesn't define who you are. you do.

You may have some grieving to do. Just finding out that it's all true is both a relief, and hurt. if you don't-great. that will save you some time.

you'll need to work on getting to know your others. Don't worry if they don't come forward right away. They may do somethings to let you know they are their before really coming for ward.
Don't be surprised if child parts or younger parts, like teens, behave just like a child or a younger part would. they will behave in age appropriate ways.

then communication will be come important. but it's kind of important not to get too far ahead of yourself and the process of therapy it self.

it's easy to get overwhelmed.

but this is a good thing that is happening. it will not always be comfortable. or easy.
but it will not always be an awful experience either.

Just treat yourself gently. Do for yourself as you might do for someone else. give yourself time. No rushing. no pushing. And places like this a very good for support, and information, and sharing. it helps.

jax

[Snoopy59]

What happened for me right after I was diagnosed was I had a bit of a freak out. [/quote]

Originally Posted by jax01

I'm not saying you should or will have one. but a lot of people do. because it's a shock. Maybe not for everyone, but for me it was.

Yes, even though I've kind of suspected, or something inside me wondered if I had DID, getting the actual diagnosis by two DR's is unsettling...

I think it's like being diagnosed with anything. It changes things. the way I saw myself changed.
It made me really have to accept that it was all real. Not only DID. which I knew already. but that the abuse really was "THAT bad." that it was done to me by someone who was supposed to protect me, and all of the things along those lines that I'll skip for triggering reasons.

Yes, this is difficult knowing my mother did more then I remember, which is bad enough..

And that some heavy excrement.
Knowing something intellectually. in your head. is much different than knowing it at heart.

The truth is this. you haven't changed. You had DID for most of your life. You just didn't know about it. but now you do. Now you can do something about it. A diagnosis doesn't define who you are. you do.

You may have some grieving to do. Just finding out that it's all true is both a relief, and hurt. if you don't-great. that will save you some time.

you'll need to work on getting to know your others. Don't worry if they don't come forward right away. They may do somethings to let you know they are their before really coming for ward.
Don't be surprised if child parts or younger parts, like teens, behave just like a child or a younger part would. they will behave in age appropriate ways.

I have children already emerging. I think several but sometimes its hard for me to distinguish one from the other, is that normal?

then communication will be come important. but it's kind of important not to get too far ahead of yourself and the process of therapy it self.

I don't understand this whole communication thing...How do we do that and what are they all communicating with me? the trauma and memories they kept?

it's easy to get overwhelmed.

but this is a good thing that is happening. it will not always be comfortable. or easy.
but it will not always be an awful experience either.

Just treat yourself gently. Do for yourself as you might do for someone else. give yourself time. No rushing. no pushing. And places like this a very good for support, and information, and sharing. it helps.

thank you so much for your support. It is overwhelming
Snoopy59
jax