[Glo123]

Help! It was awful. He has always told my kids I was crazy, but when I really got serious with therapy, he got restraining order and had me thrown out of my home. I am unable to work because my mind seems to be broken. At court he started ranting at the judge that I fabricated all my mental illnessess. He accused me of sleeping with my therapist and said that we collaborated together on my Dx! I 'm supposed to be the one with the mental problems but he sounded so psychotic. I am afraid. He is so angry, I fear he is capable of killing me. I am trying so hard to stay in charge, but I feel I'm falling apart. I called T and told him what he was accused of and he said he would talk to my lawyer and tell her how dangerous he is. I am trying to stay sane, but I feel so alone Help

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((( glo ))))))))))))

hi and welcome!

I'm so sorry you had to go through that, and still are.

I think you did the right thing! If anything, maybe the ex-husband (or soon to be) just showed his true colors. This might actually be a good, if painful, turning point.

I wish you so well. Please keep us updated and, again, welcome!

KD

[Glo123]

Thank you KD. He also has custody of my 12 year old son, who is afraid of him, and my 10 year old girl. My T said I was husband's whipping post, but now that I'm gone.....I hope and pray that somebody sees that he is dangerous-no one believes the crazy girl.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((Glo)))))))) I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm glad you have a T and lawyer to help you through this time. Best of luck to you.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( glo )))))))))))))

I'm so sorry. Your ex husband does sound very dangerous. Ugh. Please stay safe and post as much as you need to.

Take gentle care,
Fuzzy

[Fuzzybear]

PS I agree with KD. I think this dude is showing his true colours, which, although painful and scary, will ensure that you are believed. You are in my thoughts hon

[Glo123]

I can not express in words how much you and everyone here means to me. I've been running amuck and haven't posted since Wedns. Today is Saturday. I forgot completely what happened Tuesday night before court. But I have now, through the help of friend, put the pieces together. Tues. night, I had visitation with my kids. My lawyer had told me not to make payments on my car, and put my beloved piano up for sale to get another car. My husband, knowing where I was going to be parked, told the finance company. As I, my children, and my monitor were walking out of the piano place (I was checking to see if it was going to be sold anytime soon) My car was being repossed. I went completely numb. My children ran over to the tow truck driver and he helped them get my things out. He felt very bad for me. I felt bad because all I could do was sit on the curb while my children got my things out of the car. Then I wasn't me anymore. I still had 30 minutes left with my visit, but one of me told monitor, "No thank you, I'm done for tonight." I must have called my friend, I don't remember anything, because he met me in the bolling alley bar. He said I made several phone calls. I found out later that me (but not me) called my therapist and talked for a long time. My T confirmed this conversation next day. I still do not know who was called or what was said. My friend said I wrote a letter to husband, it said: "Read Deutoronmy. The worst sin in God's eyes is disdain for the poor, widows and orphans. God has told me not to pray for you anymore. You have been given many chances, and God is done with you. I am not to be concerned with your welfare again. God said to me "I am done with this person. I am to take care of myself and wait because the children will need thier mother healed and restored." I found part of the note on newspaper. It was not my handwriting. Not even close. Apparantly, I went to the children's house and dropped off my daughters birthday present and gave husband note. I found a bank receipt that I had also made a deposit into the auto-teller. But I don't remember any of this. Someone on this website mentioned a "protector" and I think that the person that took over that night. He/she was very angry and very aggressive per my friend and T. I appreciate the "protector" standing up for me, but I could have gotten in a lot of trouble from "protector's" agressive anger and absolutely no fear of any consecuences. I can not get to my T because I have no transportation and I have no income now because state disability said I was o.k. to go back to work because when I was sent to thier Psychiatrist, according to the report, I (but not I) said I was fine and recieving no psychiatric treatment at all. This person also told the Dr. that I was not now, nor had ever been suicidal. None of this was true, but now I don't think the Dr. was lying. I do not remember any of that interview at all. I think one of the subs was talking and did not want to be "mental." I also found out I've been getting on adult websites sending very personal pictures and chatting with strange men. I'm sorry this is so long. I'm just so scared! This is not me!! I am a mother of two children, who worked as a supervising psychiatric nurse in a long term facility. I loved my job and I loved working with people that were incapcitated from mental illness. Now, I feel worse off than they were. I am trying to keep track of everything I do now, by leaving clues on peices of paper, and having friends "watch over me." As soon as I can get some money, I am going to start purchasing books from Myself's booklist. Please, any suggestions on how to control what's going on withing me would be greatly accepted!!! </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Someone once told me, just by admitting you have a problem and seeking therapuetic help, places you 50% closer to wellness.

[(JD)]

((((safe hug)))) I'm sorry that happened. It's so common, though! Did you read DocJohn's blog link about the abusive husbands getting custody of children??? grrrrrr Take care!