[Claritytoo]

One of my really angry ones was out. When he is out all he does is rant and rage about my father. (who died a few years ago) He curses and rages sometimes just repeating the same thing over and over. His presence consumes my body. He makes the body feel heavy inside. He will usually get into bed and begin ranting and raging about not being told what to do, about not being used. He uses a lot of fowl language and yells loud. He storms around the house but last night he didn't let up. I tried to distract us but that didn't work. I took an ice pack into bead with us and held it and put it on my head and legs. I eventually fell asleep. This morning I didn't remember how bad it was until i started to think about it. He is still near and is very heavy. He takes a lot out of me.

[innocentjoy]

I'm sorry you had such a rough night. It's difficult when different parts take up so much energy. You sound like you coped as well as you could, but are still feeling it.

Is the angry one aware of the present time? Does he know your father is dead? My t suggests that I go to my grandfather's grave site to let the different parts rant and rave, and realize that he is in the ground, and can no longer hurt us. I haven't gone alone, which is what I need, but I can reassure the little ones that we will no longer be hurt.

What is your relationship like with the angry one you were speakinf of? Is there a sense of respect/listening between you two? I'm wondering if he needs some validation and some help to process the anger. Could you two write a letter and burn it, or have some sort of ritual based on getting that anger out? Or are there any activities that would help you with the anger? One idea would be using icecubes. You would write messages in the ice cubes and freeze them, then smash them against a brick wall, each releasing a memory, issue, word or message.

It sounds like he might also be feeling that he's needed to be angry for you, for some reason. Hearing you talk about your parts before, I get the sense that they all step in to 'protect' you in different ways, as they feel is needed, I wonder if he feels it is necessary, or just isn't being heard.

I wish you all the best, let us know how it goes, if you feel comfortable.
xoxo
IJ