My friend

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I'm sorry for all of your pain. I wish we could help more.

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Don't suffer with this alone.

We are here for you.

Sending love to you.

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Don't give up

"we do what we can do, we do what we must"

If we didn't believe that "time heals all wounds" we couldn't go on either.

Let time pass, of course you're tired of loss, heartbreak & pain

but we don't believe you're tired of life

Pass the time as best you can manage, & the loss will process itself in your sub-conscious.

Please hang on in there purple petals.

We love you, let us help, we know about loss & pain.

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Here for you my friend. You are struggling and we are here with you.
The Constellation

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))))))))))))))) We are here for you when you are ready.

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Love,
Furry Paws

I feel bad I'm not here.

But this is what I do. I withdraw like a wounded animal.

Then I ruminate...why care for people when they just leave or die and I fight and fight to shut my feelings down.

I know it's not healthy but it is what it is.

pet......you do what you have to do.....i'll be here when you need more.....

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we are thinking of you

((((((((((( Petunia )))))))))))))

Don't feel bad you're not around, instead let everyone support you

And the fact that you can care and love so much... shows you're a good person

((( all my buds )))

One of my PTSD triggers is people dying. I have suffered with pathological/complicated grief since my father died when I was ten.

I was very traumatized by that loss.

Within a year of him dying, people (mostly brothers but others) were overdosing (my house became a junkie flop-house) and I was literally trying to wake the dead (DOA's) or I'd wake up to the house burning in the middle of the night from ciggys.

I began obsessing about my family perishing. I was petrified that dealers would break in while we were sleeping and kill us for the money my brothers owed them. I was eleven.

So now, even all these years later, when a loved one dies it sparks that old fuse, complicated by the fact that they actually did die in the long run.

It makes me want to push people I care about away because I don't want to feel the hurt of "potentially" losing them.

This is why I distance myself.

Unresolved grief bubbles to the surface and mixes with the new grief which gets me all messed up and brings me to my knees.

(((((((((((((((((Petunia)))))))))))))) It's very understandable why you would handle this the way you have. I'm so sorry. We will be here when you are ready. We care about you.

(((((((((((((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that your grief is compounded. Please take your time and know we are all here for you.

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(((((Petunia))))))
Here just sitting with you. Holding that little girl who is so traumatized and scared.

((((((((((((( Petunia ))))))))))))))))

It is very understandable that you feel that way. All of us will wait for you. Don't worry.

Hugs,

Jan

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((( Gem )))

Thanks for being here...

(((((((((((((((((((((((Petunia)))))))))))))))))))) Here when you are ready.

Thanks bud.

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Always here for you.............

Thanks Furry paws. I know you are.