[LILITH]

Over the last couple of days I find myself very sensitive to smells. I am having a hard time staying present. I am struggling with going back into time. Some are good times some are very bad times. I guess it is from the trauma of so many things going on at the same time; new teeth, insulin pump, problems with my day to day living.... sometimes I feel that I can't go another step. Or afraid of going another step, going out of the house, talking to people. I have wonderful things in my life, but I still feel a void. Alters not happy with me... cutting and not listening. Which brings me chaos. I feel I need to be some place safe, I need a break. I never wanted to be in a psych facility again. But I think I need tuning up, a respite...... But knowing my family dynamics and situations I know this is impossible. I will have to rely on T to help me through this. I have been trying to hide these feelings.... I just can't supress them any longer. The lack of sleep also is playing a major role.
Venting, Venting, Venting!

((Lilith)) I hear you! yesterday was a bad day for me. I lost some hours but the worse bit is the just before the switch, thats when it all seems to much. The confusion on trying to function on different levels is so hard! I hope your T can help you get through this!

[Perna]

When I use to have trouble with smells, I'd instantly "ground" myself in here-and-now to make sure they wouldn't go any further? Shift your focus to the room you're in or literally go outside and feel the cold/wind, etc. and see the cars driving in the street, etc. I use to get "snatched" back by smells; it was like someone grabbed me by the scruff of my neck and threw me back 40-50 years.

[summerflower]

Lilith

hope that you are feeling better. lack of sleep trainwrecks our body, mind,spirit & soul. like you, i've been without sleep as well...even with the ambien cr. just sooo very tired and want to crawl off into hibernation for a long, long time.

my thoughts are with you and i hope you get some super rested sleep.

summer

Hi lillith,

yeah, we arent so well either and having the unsafe feeling and cutting too. I hope you feel better soon, and I am sending lots of love.

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((Everyone)))))))))))))))))))) I hope we all start to feel better.