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My t said I might have dissociated my feelings. Where would my feelings go if I dissociated them? I thought dissociate meant, well now that I am thinking about it, I thought it meant that I would switch to a part that didn't have feelings. I am so confused at this moment. My t is on maternity leave. I emailed her but I can't expect her to have a session over the internet. I googled this but couldn't find anything that addressed my question. If anyone understands what I am asking and could give me some insight I would appreciate it.

Dissociated your feelings, I guess would mean that you are unaware of the true feelings and blocked them out.

I thought I should have felt something at the time. But I just thought blah blah blah and left. No anger or hurt feelings. Nothing. So to dissociate feelings means to block them?

I think that is what your T meant, yes.

I can see her meaning that you take your feelings and bury them, not dealing with it. Take anger, you feel extremely angry. You don't want to feel angry, or you are not comfortable with it. The alter up front takes it away and another very similar or totally different steps up. I feel that for every personna there must be a clone or one very similar, to carry on like nothing happens. I can actually see a bad feeling/emotion/pain being dragged back and disappearing into the darkness. We are pros at this.

Can it be possible to split an alter immediately like twins where the first takes off with the pain? I think so.

At least that's what it feels like. When a new alter takes over, for co-conscience me, the memories of the previous alter fades away into a dream, thus burying the feeling or trauma.

I've been in the most deepest darkest painful moments a many of times crying hard when Susie's voice says "it's going to be all right dear" and then instantly I feel possessed and the mental anguish would just melt away leaving me wiping my tears wondering why I was crying in the first place laughing at my situation slightly confused. To me, thats disassociating our way.