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possum220 · Mar 20, 2015, 05:18 AM

feeling bad. like a cloud is inside my head. No voice. No outside voice. trapped inside a nightmare and I can't wake up..... Somebody else was here today and they ran away and did;t know what to do.

Mar 20, 2015, 09:33 AM

ArthurDent · Mar 20, 2015, 09:46 AM

I'm sorry you're feeling bad, my friend.

Mar 20, 2015, 10:16 AM

Gr3tta · Mar 20, 2015, 03:10 PM

Baby possom hugs

Mar 20, 2015, 03:47 PM

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Originally Posted by possum220

feeling bad. like a cloud is inside my head. No voice. No outside voice. trapped inside a nightmare and I can't wake up..... Somebody else was here today and they ran away and did;t know what to do.

What is inside that cloud that is bothering you - would it help to let it out by writing a post? Know that no matter what you choose to do... it's worth it to fight for your dreams. So don't give up.

possum220 · Mar 21, 2015, 06:20 AM

Still stuck. No outside voice. It's like I'm banging my hands on a huge sheet of glass and yelling but nobody can hear me.

Nightmares. Always nightmares.

I'm scared I will hurt people with my voice.

Mar 21, 2015, 06:50 AM

Hang in there. I get bad nightmares too. Hang in there. One day it will get better.

Claritytoo · Mar 21, 2015, 08:21 AM

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Originally Posted by possum220

Still stuck. No outside voice. It's like I'm banging my hands on a huge sheet of glass and yelling but nobody can hear me.

Nightmares. Always nightmares.

I'm scared I will hurt people with my voice.

This will sound strange but I have had similar moments. What helps is when I clear my throat. I make a sound by clearing my throat. When I hear it I realize it is me making the sound. I realize nothing bad happened. And than I say a work and I am back. I have never understood why that happens. I know at the same time it is happening I am often thinking that I must be very still and quite. But once I hear my sound and know that nothing bad happens I feel relieved and say a word. Than immediately start talking out loud amongst ourselves. I hope this might help.

possum220 · Mar 23, 2015, 06:17 AM

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This will sound strange but I have had similar moments. What helps is when I clear my throat. I make a sound by clearing my throat. When I hear it I realize it is me making the sound. I realize nothing bad happened. And than I say a work and I am back. I have never understood why that happens. I know at the same time it is happening I am often thinking that I must be very still and quite. But once I hear my sound and know that nothing bad happens I feel relieved and say a word. Than immediately start talking out loud amongst ourselves. I hope this might help.

I tried clearing my throat Clarity. It wasn't a quick process. Like trying to start a a very old lawn mower that is blocked. A day later my voice is mostly normal for now at least. It would seem that my throat was in spasm for a long time. It doesn't seem to move far away from that state.

More switching today......... The joys of DID.

Claritytoo · Mar 23, 2015, 08:14 AM

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I tried clearing my throat Clarity. It wasn't a quick process. Like trying to start a a very old lawn mower that is blocked. A day later my voice is mostly normal for now at least. It would seem that my throat was in spasm for a long time. It doesn't seem to move far away from that state.

More switching today......... The joys of DID.

I am glad to hear you are a little better. One other time when I couldn't talk I went to the doctor. I had to write notes to explain what was going on. He said I had acid reflux and when the stomach acid comes up and hits my vocal cords it causes them to spasm. He was right. Once I started an over the counter antacid the problem stopped. But that was not the same as when I couldn't talk because I was thinking I needed to be still and quite. Two different things. When I had the problem with the antacid I couldn't clear my throat. I couldn't make a sound. According to my dr I am one of many people who have this issue with stomach acid. Take care.

Claritytoo · Mar 23, 2015, 08:21 AM

Oh I forgot to include. The stomach acid also caused me to not breath when my vocal cordes spasm during sleep. I would wake up in a panic because it felt like I couldn't breath. I had that for about a year prior to not being able to talk. The antacid really does a job on your digestive system and vocal coards. Another thing that helped was when I started taking an anti anxiety medication, stopped drinking whiskey and changed my diet away from foods that upset my stomach. I am trying to take better care of my body. We are trying our best to work as a team.

possum220 · Mar 23, 2015, 10:19 PM

I am in the process of weaning off klonolpin. I would not be overly impressed if that is the source of more anxiety that sets off the throat spasms. One day at a time..........

lifelies · Mar 24, 2015, 01:51 PM

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I am in the process of weaning off klonolpin. I would not be overly impressed if that is the source of more anxiety that sets off the throat spasms. One day at a time..........

It is probably the cause. If you've been taking klonopin for a (not necessarily) long period of time, its withdrawal is going to cause the symtpoms you mention, even if you gradually wean off it.
I wish you the best on your process of quitting klonopin

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