Maybe if I quit these forums, take it out of my mind and concentrate on life, the black and white boundaries would fade off into gray, and just tolerate it for the rest of my life, blindly, but somewhat effectively as my focus accepts that everything I do as normal. Just ignore the obvious and re enter the world of ignorant bliss. I'm good at forgetting, so this won't be any different.

I've done it before, I think I can do it again. I think. That depends on everyone else. Oh so tempting.

I've read a theory that DIDers work hard to appear normal. That's how I feel. I feel like I've worked hard just to look like that I haven't worked at all. It's so exhausting. I've tried for a minute and it's not working yet.

Okay, it's all good. I can't fight it.

[TheFuZZieONE]

Alwayschanging2,

I was thinking the same thing! Right now I'm seeing three different therapists, and a psychiatrist. I'm spending a lot of money on therapy and wasting time. All the bad memories, all the pain, and for what? More than anything I just want to be happy. My DID is mild I think. I'm able to hold jobs, have relationships and take care of my family. So what's the big deal? Who cares if I'm more than one person? Most people don't even notice anyway. I'm thinking of giving myself a time limit. One year of therapy, then I move on with life. We'll see...

[lifelies]

This forum is helpful to me (us). It helps me realize I'm not alone and there are other people having the same problems.
My DID symptoms however seem to aggravate whenever I come too often to the forums, maybe because some of the "alters" are triggered.
I don't plan on leaving though.

Tom

Thanks y'all, I was not in a good way yesterday, (sigh)

I'm a forum junkie, I'll probably never leave. Who knows.

I was reading about "Multiples", a group of people that aren't labeled DID because they are perfectly happy about their condition and that their lives aren't affected. They said MI is a condition that interferes with personal and social functions, which means they don't qualify as DID.

[TheFuZZieONE]

Interesting, what's the book called? It seems easier to just accept myself the way I am and move on!

Originally Posted by TheFuZZieONE

Interesting, what's the book called? It seems easier to just accept myself the way I am and move on!

Sorry hun, it wasn't a book, but more a skit to get a point across followed by comments. Many were appreciative of the point of view.

Multiple vs. MPD, DID, DDNOS by BaaingTree on DeviantArt

I myself, even though I'm co-operating to a point, has a shattered life, limping through it.