Sure co-conscience means that the alters are aware of other alters, but how does that really work and play out in the mind?

Using myself as an example, I feel like I'm a floating conscience under direct influence of the up front personality. My thoughts are their thoughts, I'm them, they're me. It's like one stream of sequential thought with many different colors and views and different paths are opened. We are connected telepathically? We all watch and jump in as if on cue as required? I don't know who or what this "conscience" is because it has so many different voices.

If I wasn't aware, I can see where we'd be different. Central self? I don't know what that is. We can spin off in any different direction, whoever wants to take the lead and the rest of us following in elected support. We just live for the moment.

There isn't any missing time, maybe 5% of the time. Just shattered memories.

I wish I was just psychotic. So much easier.

[finding_my_way]

i am not really sure. for me, years ago i think i was way more aware of them, the shifts, the thoughts and feelings that were theirs versus mine, hearing them talk or share thoughts/feelings with me.....but over the last few years it kind of seemed to go a bit backwards where i don't experience near the amount of any of it i used to. but i guess there is some degree of it at times (i don't experience dissociation like i used to either chronically, just when stressed).

i also, like you, don't have missing time..i never did black out, just always had very fuzzy memories and barely remembered much after the dissociation stopped.

for me now, it's more still just blending of them and me (when i dissociate in that particular way), but not even like co consciousness even though i think that might be what the description of it is?

i find that when i feel...different..not really myself that i can feel one of them (maybe sometimes two or so at the same time) but it's kind of distant, and i cannot separate myself from them except know that i'm not 'just' me either....it's very confusing for me.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Sure co-conscience means that the alters are aware of other alters, but how does that really work and play out in the mind?

Using myself as an example, I feel like I'm a floating conscience under direct influence of the up front personality. My thoughts are their thoughts, I'm them, they're me. It's like one stream of sequential thought with many different colors and views and different paths are opened. We are connected telepathically? We all watch and jump in as if on cue as required? I don't know who or what this "conscience" is because it has so many different voices.

If I wasn't aware, I can see where we'd be different. Central self? I don't know what that is. We can spin off in any different direction, whoever wants to take the lead and the rest of us following in elected support. We just live for the moment.

There isn't any missing time, maybe 5% of the time. Just shattered memories.

I wish I was just psychotic. So much easier.

I know what you mean about everyone in your system just knows what the others are thinking and stuff. here where I am (your term telepathy) is called co consciousness isnt referred to as telepathy/paranormal (ie telepathy/reading minds and other paranormal activities)

here where I am co consciousness is things like hearing the alters voices as they talk with you or each other, its sharing memories ie an alter telling you what they remember or knowing what happened...

example before I was integrated I would hear voices non stop of my alters talking. sometimes it would be so loud and fast I would only catch a word or two. Rainy would be saying I want my blanket while trixie would be saying gosh that guy is a hunk while thelma would be saying forget the guy look at that babe with the snazzy top and Sunny would be saying yes the sunis out lets go to the beach thelma bet you will find something interesting there....All the while I the aware self would be trying to talk with someone at work about work related things...

another example of co consciousness here where I live is my saying something like wow that person looks familiar where do I know them from and Sunny telling me using her voice... thats megan from the BBQ that we went to last week and Sunny suddenly showing me in memory images (just like normal people have memory images when they remember something) of the BBQ we went to. (some people call this reliving of memory images ...having flashbacks which can be about good or bad memories)

Okay, telepathy is the wrong word. You are quite the literal kind which is awesome because it shows the professionalism and learning on your end, impressive actually. I tend to take words and bend them around their meanings to suit and use them slightly out of context to see how far I can get it to bend. Poetic license or a twisted game? Lol But yes, like that.

Just ignore our leader. He's a control freak, always trying to run the show forcing his way. He's always watching, so worried that the rest of us is going to embarrass him. We swap lead, but he's always tuned in, ready to put a cap on things.

Sometimes we wish we can just tie him up for awhile so he would chill! Lol

One thing I do notice is that if we write something, nobody knows. If we experience something, a general notion is noted but detailed specifics elude us. Of course there's the ever watching lead whose job is to make our system function by keeping tabs of pertinent info. It would be great if he was really any good at it. He does okay. He tends to forget things! Lololol