i know i live here in this house i know the planet is earth and i can see the vision in front of my eyes but its like i dont belong to it, someones picked me up and put me here and i dont know where i am but i do know where i am and i'm wandering round trying to appear like i'm me but i dont know who me is and hoping no one gets to close to me and i want to be a dark place somewhere where its safe i dont want to be here in this place go away

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((mouse)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are feeling so disoriented. I understand that you can see where you are but not know where that is and how scary that is. I hope you find a place that feels safe for you there. I am here if you need me.
Take care.

BB

i've just had the most surreal 2 or 3 hours...after I felt so bad this morning I went up too bed, something i never do. I laid down and thought I was asleep but was in that place between sleep and awake unyet I couldnt move my body it felt so heavy...but then i was flooded with memorys of when i was very young...it was like i was there with the me i was then...i could see my old house and was feeling feelings that i felt back then and had long since forgotten or got rid off...every now and again i realised i was safe and it was ok to be taken back to this time...it was like going in and out of a tunnel of time and i was leading myself by the hand...my body was shaking inside but because i was half awake half asleep i wasn't panicing...i knew it felt awful but i because i was there with the me then i could go through "it"...i feel awakened and refreshed and exorcised if thats the right word...it really was the most surreal feeling...i feel back in the today again now!