[lucidity11]

I have stopped seeing my t and since i have stopped seeing my t everyone has gotten very quite. I started to think that maybe some of us may have integrated but if that were so there would be memories from when we were young but there isn't . I mean it is good not to have the conflict in my head but it is confusing. Why is everyone so quiet? I did have a problem at the dentist today. I was super scared and cried a little in the car after. Sometimes i am glad i know about DID and sometimes i am not sure.

Through the years, I found by not focusing on the situation, it just flows. Right now, I'm so Effed up over everything I'm fighting against it. I should of left it alone. IMHO. I should of never came on here.

[Kiya]

therapy is like the poker that stirs the fire.
sometimes it feels more calm when we're not in t. not as much gets accomplished, and one may continue to be stuck... but sometimes a rest is also needed. now that I've re-entered t, things are more intense and I rather wish I hadn't.... but a work situation made it pretty much mandatory. yay
dentist is no fun. I cry too. hope you feel better.

[finding_my_way]

that is actually part of my fear of going into therapy again or even checking in more regularly with my psychiatrist. in the past, i was seeing different people for different things, but my head was very chaotic. after stopping a lot of it, things kind of leveled out a bit.