[nichii1612]

I was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder recently. I've been experiencing psychogenic non-epileptic seizures a lot lately and I think it's due to old memories resurfacing and my mind using seizures as a defense mechanism. After researching DID a lot, I've noticed that most people with this have suffered severe abuse when they were children.

After doing some research, I seem to match most of the childhood abuse and ritual abuse symptoms. The thing is, I have no memory at all of ever being abused. I have a strong feeling that I was though, but I can't remember.

I think the only way I'm ever going to get better is if I'm able to remember what happened to me and come to terms with it. I really want to remember, so I'm wondering, is there any way to recall repressed memories? I want to get over this, but I need to know what happened to me.

[finding_my_way]

from my understanding and personal experience, memories will come back to you in their own time.

i have had severe dissociation my entire life (until just a few years ago where it started to lessen and become less frequent). i knew there was stuff in childhood that traumatized me as i remembered years of bits and pieces of stuff that was more constant, but i did not remember other trauma until it started coming back to me in my early teen years. but even then, i do not have full memories of it. i also found that there were things my mom told me that i witnessed but have no memory of and know there are things i will never remember.

they can do hypnosis to see if memories come back, but i personally am unsure of the success and validity of using that.

i just have found with myself that things will come up when they are ready, and i cannot push it.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by nichii1612

I was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder recently. I've been experiencing psychogenic non-epileptic seizures a lot lately and I think it's due to old memories resurfacing and my mind using seizures as a defense mechanism. After researching DID a lot, I've noticed that most people with this have suffered severe abuse when they were children.

After doing some research, I seem to match most of the childhood abuse and ritual abuse symptoms. The thing is, I have no memory at all of ever being abused. I have a strong feeling that I was though, but I can't remember.

I think the only way I'm ever going to get better is if I'm able to remember what happened to me and come to terms with it. I really want to remember, so I'm wondering, is there any way to recall repressed memories? I want to get over this, but I need to know what happened to me.

repressed memories are a bit different than having dissociated memories.

repressed memories are memories that are kept stuffed down/avoiced

example of a repressed memory....last week I had a scare with one of my children. As young children do this child ran ahead of me in a parking lot and a car was backing up.my child is and was safe the driver braked in time for my wife to grab the child. out of harms way. that night my wife and I were talking about the situation. I remembered what we were doing before the event and after but not the event. it was just so emotionally charged that my brain repressed it. every time it came to talking about the situation I told my wife lets not talk about this now, i dont remember it and dont want to. lets just leave things as they are. but yesterday when i heard a car squeal outside I had a flashback of what happened. enough time had passed so that I was no longer afraid of what happened and was no longer consciously fighting what happened so my unconscious memory unlocked its self.

A dissociated memory with having alternate personalities is a memory in which is contained with in an alternate personality. (think kind of like a locked safe and you dont have the key or password, its still there just not where you can get at it.) the alter knows and can talk about what happened but the aware self most if not always doesnt even remember that dissociated memory exists let alone talk about it. just the way dissociation works.

since you are asking about a repressed memory the key is more about relaxing, being comfortable with yourself and the events in question, then when you are ready your unconscious memories will be available to you. one way treatment providers facilitate this process is by having a client keep a journal, write about their feelings, write about what led up to the repressed memory, write what they can remember after the event happened.

if you mean dissociated memories rather than repressed memories im sorry but there is only two ways for that to happen. the first is integration of alters (this is where a persons alters merge back together with the person diagnosed with DID to become one person again which causes everything that was the alters to become one whole person again including the dissociative memories) and the second way is through establishing co consciousness. thats when the alters and hosts share the memories. to do this it takes many years of therapy work on stabilizing and working on the problems that caused a person to become DID. once the person has healed enough to know and understand what trauma's caused them to become DID the alters will share those memories with each other and those they live with in.