EMDR for dissociators who are survivors

T tried to explain EMDR and the motions alone freaked me out could not even consider doing it.
lrks

I don't think I could do the visual...too distracting and potentially triggering in itself. Me and flashes don't do well...plus it's hypnotizing if it's not triggering. Does that make sense?

Thanks for sharing, and I'm thinking I'd probably do better with audio alone or with sensory tapping.

I'm still hoping to learn more.

KD

Update - EMDR flopped for me.

Well it was actually easy to think about what happened without emotions and stuff because I can shut off my feelings anyway as a part of my DID. So the visualizing went ok. The hard part was my not laughing when I was trying to do all the tapping, making the sound and saying focus. I kept saying a different F word - frucus, frokus and yes that other popular word too came out a few times today.

We ended up getting into my therapist car and going to the mall that it happened in and everytime I started to panic she walked me through doing the stuff because I have the ability to shut things off so in her office I couldnt think about how I felt in panic in order to make it work in her office. But by going to the mall it made it more real to me and she was able to see my exact reactions and was able to see what I needed which was throw EMDR away and just deal with what we should have been doing from the beginning - not trying to look at things in the EMDR way of no emotions but to instead let myself feel what I was shutting off t5hrough my having DID and then doing some other grounding stuff like finding a quiet place and breathing exercises and noticing what was going on around me at the mall and then talking with my therapist through what happened to me. So there I was in an "alley" at the end of and inside the mall sitting on the floor with my back to the wall and my therapist sitting the same and my blubbering and telling my therapist I didn't want to feel ecetera..

EMDR is definately not for me but on a good note because I wanted to try it we ended up at the scene of the crime and broke down that no feeling wall with it so hopefully no more panic attacks at the mall for me.