[Shaly78]

Most people I've read about and know including myself have an inner world you might not notice at the beginning after dx but you will later on usually indicates good communication inside with alters. We are people, I like it that way. Hallucinations too me with D.I.D carried this negative connotation like, here go get some anti psychotics to get rid of them some work some don't. If the job is not to suppress your alters, so that you learn everything about your system and eventually your memories. I think I'm just a little older than people starting out I guess.....#Antipsychoticintolerant

[finding_my_way]

for me, i have experienced hallucinations that aren't necessarily related to my dissociative experiences that are actually terrifying. but at the same time, even those related to it also can be very scary at times. so, i am one who does take a medication so i can get through it or else it could be potentially dangerous for me. i think medication is a personal choice, and it depends on what is useful for each individual.

but it is my choice on what i take or when i take it...if i can actually remember to take it when it's needed for safety reasons...which sometimes does not happen because it is not remembered or seen as an option for whatever reason since everything goes on lock down.

[Georgia Bridge]

Me personally... I have taken many anti-psychotics and they all seemed to make things more dangerous.
I do, however, take some psychtropics for the co-morbid aspects of D.I.D. that do help a lot.
Inner world for me carried me through most of my life which seems pretty strange because most of it was quite frightening... a world of good vs. evil type thing. I was diagnosed bipolar schizoaffective for 20 yrs.
Last December D.I.D. was added to the list. That's when the personalities started making themselves known ( all I can guess as to why they started coming out so rapidly after dx was because they began to feel validated... really not sure though). I met a few many years ago but only for a very short time. Complex internal and external world (hallucinations) throughout that time that I didn't connect with MPD.
So, yeah, lots of anti-psychotics...
Massive phobia of them have I.
Anti-psychotic refuser... and being able to feel safe refusing them was a long, uphill battle.
Thanks for this thread.
Inner world indicates good communication b/w alters?! This I had not heard of. Thank you muchly for that information!

[finding_my_way]

Originally Posted by Georgia Bridge

Me personally... I have taken many anti-psychotics and they all seemed to make things more dangerous.
I do, however, take some psychtropics for the co-morbid aspects of D.I.D. that do help a lot.
Inner world for me carried me through most of my life which seems pretty strange because most of it was quite frightening... a world of good vs. evil type thing. I was diagnosed bipolar schizoaffective for 20 yrs.
Last December D.I.D. was added to the list. That's when the personalities started making themselves known ( all I can guess as to why they started coming out so rapidly after dx was because they began to feel validated... really not sure though). I met a few many years ago but only for a very short time. Complex internal and external world (hallucinations) throughout that time that I didn't connect with MPD.
So, yeah, lots of anti-psychotics...
Massive phobia of them have I.
Anti-psychotic refuser... and being able to feel safe refusing them was a long, uphill battle.
Thanks for this thread.
Inner world indicates good communication b/w alters?! This I had not heard of. Thank you muchly for that information!

when you say psychotropics, do you mean a mood stabilizer, antidepressant, etc.? just curious because antipsychotics are also psychotropics.

i personally never found a mood stabilizer or SSRI type medications useful for me. they made things a lot worse for me symptom wise.

but i know that everyone responds different too, so what works for one is not what works for all.

[Georgia Bridge]

I should have said different psychotropics in that post.
I do worse with anti-depressants as well. I take anti-anxiety meds and after much trial and error with mood stabilizers ( bipolar for 20 yrs., supposedly) I was prescribed one that works for things other than mood stabilization.
As you know all personalities feel and think differently. My "moods" go all over the map still, but I can actually read again with it and it makes the world less ethereal and more solid, if that makes sense.
Like, say,... I still mentally dissociate but physically I dissociate less... being more aware of my body I pay closer attention to my movements and I don't trip or crash into things as much.
I told med providers these things but it's not something it is supposed to treat so they didn't pay much attention. It's called an 'atypical' mood stabilizer; it was originally developed to treat seizures (Lamictal). But as you say everyone responds differently to different meds.
Anti-psychotics scare the daylights out of me. I call them 'high-caliber' meds. Some were much worse than others.
Do you have any meds that do work for you?
I sure can talk a lot... Have a good 🌙 or morning or tomorrow... all of the above... Meg.

I used to take drugs to hallucinate...they were fun!

LSD, XTC, shrooms, staying a wake for weeks,...

It wasn't until I was 43 that we discovered that we were bipolarish. They labeled me bipolar 1, but that's because I was loaded on anti-d.

I get a mild case of paranoia, but nothing major.

I get an AP for hallucinations, but AP messes me up so we don't take it.

I have non-specific hallucinations, I see changing patterns, colors, and shapes in the shade of an object or in the dark. A few times I was mesmerized that I just stared at the ceiling for an hour. They don't bother me except when the walls and floors shift around.

[finding_my_way]

Originally Posted by Georgia Bridge

I should have said different psychotropics in that post.
I do worse with anti-depressants as well. I take anti-anxiety meds and after much trial and error with mood stabilizers ( bipolar for 20 yrs., supposedly) I was prescribed one that works for things other than mood stabilization.
As you know all personalities feel and think differently. My "moods" go all over the map still, but I can actually read again with it and it makes the world less ethereal and more solid, if that makes sense.
Like, say,... I still mentally dissociate but physically I dissociate less... being more aware of my body I pay closer attention to my movements and I don't trip or crash into things as much.
I told med providers these things but it's not something it is supposed to treat so they didn't pay much attention. It's called an 'atypical' mood stabilizer; it was originally developed to treat seizures (Lamictal). But as you say everyone responds differently to different meds.
Anti-psychotics scare the daylights out of me. I call them 'high-caliber' meds. Some were much worse than others.
Do you have any meds that do work for you?
I sure can talk a lot... Have a good 🌙 or morning or tomorrow... all of the above... Meg.

i take ativan and seroquel as needed. they are the only two i have been able to tolerate without having a bad side effect whether mentally making things worse or physically making me sick or causing weight gain or actually have a positive effect. i have learned what doses work for me for the most part and actually cut the pills into pieces (with my psychiatrist being okay with it) and take small doses since i can be sensitive to full doses.

so, i just take them as needed and not daily as it seems to work better that way for me. sometimes though, when i am not doing well and am highly dissociative mixed with depression, i cannot seem to remember i have seroquel which is when i should take it..so sometimes, i suffer needlessly more than i should. not sure why i forget that i have it at times, but i do.

i wouldn't say they actually 'fix' things, they just can help me get through rough times.