Something that we do a lot is "dream" think, that is laying there conscience but body is at full rest, analyzing the past. I'm not sure what else you would call it, just short of lucid dreaming.

This early morning, we were analyzing past, studying it as to figure the forces at work behind events and others like it. The topic this time was getting hurt by our own hands while doing something at work, play, or wherever.

It's dawned on us that, like moments of great pain is preceded by a moment of dissociation. For instance, one time the worker was swinging a big hammer at a nail really hard like, then an other came out midswing, the hammer missed the nail and we ended curled up on the floor for awhile holding our knee.

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Okay, I was nailing a board to the floor while I was kneeling on my knees. There's 20 years of experience hitting that nail, so missing it is not going to happen. For a split second in mid swing, I "phased out" (daze) like I stepped away and then wham. My body had to have jerked up to miss like that. I felt different, out of body....then pain, lotsa lotsa pain.

This happens a lot. When totally focused at a crucial moment, my mind dazes out, a lot of mental talking is happens, I can feel myself doubting success, I'm now telling my head to shut up while trying to not cut my fingers off, and have to force myself back out. It's scary. Like cutting a board. I just have to go 5 inches, half way through..leave...talk talk talk...stop cutting to get it back together, then finish. Deep breath.

You know, I've always thought this was ADD, but the pulling back double vision daze blank causes me to doubt. Sure self doubt hits, but dazing out doesn't help none because it makes it worse. Now I expect it to happen which makes it worser. I'm lucky that I still have all my fingers. I'm afraid that someone (other then myself) will get hurt one day.

Okay, let's talk about driving...

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With all that said, back to the subject... does anyone else experience these mid- wee- early morning mental meetings. I tell you what, they are so energizing that usually I have to get up, even after 5 hours of sleep. I think I've posted something like this before.

[Skeezyks]

I don't know if this is at all similar to what you have in mind, but I'm often awake for periods of time in the middle of the night. I don't typically think much about the past, especially the "deep past" (when I was still growing up.) But every so often memories of my extended family (who are all long-since deceased) come floating back. And, for a time, it's almost like I'm back there. It's a strange sensation...