[Shaly78]

I'm not usually on the go in the morning with a 9 to 5 job....This is becoming more and more noticeable, especially during bathroom breaks over night....What is important to pay attention to ? Since I know my little girl trauma didn't come overnight with repeated attacks, how else can I look at this? Is it possible 'bed' as a trigger? Well that mostly happened when the body was adult abuse in the bed....Everything else that I want to focus on is basements and bathrooms and maybe bedroom as the most hidden stuff that would totally shock me. How would other systems represented here, use clues to figure out past trauma?

[finding_my_way]

could be a reaction to things being triggered externally, stress, changes, etc.

i try to look at associations, emotional and physical reactions, etc. and try to piece things together, but it still can be difficult to put figure out since there aren't a lot of memories.

[Shaly78]

I know this is mighty embarrassing and I have yet to talk in person about anything sexual in great detail...At what point do you delve into it with your therapist? Do you really think it is necessary? To talk about how you shower what areas you focus on or any clues. I think it is way to embarrassing and something that doesn't need to be discuss unless your in a total trusting relationship with your therapist. Sex, pain, and rituals is the bulk of the causes right...I just wondering out loud

I have found to be the best approach for me is to lay it all bare, be honest, and hold nothing back to be sure everything is dissected. When I hold something back, it eats at me like I feel dirty and I am hiding a secret, and that secret has me tainted which becomes more than it needs to be. I also feel like I've given an honest effort to my recovery program.

To me, therapists are paid professionals that are there to serve a purpose to me. I pay them to help me. If they are anti me, then they are so fired, and if they did wrong like breach confidentiality, they get a black eye and can also be sued. Also, I can build a website and ruin their careers forever.

I met my first therapist and right off the bat told her something that I've never told anyone else ever in my life that caused an other to emerge to get it over with because it was messed up and has caused drastic changes in my life.

Of course, as if it isn't obvious, were a little lot forthcoming in our story and situation....so NOT DID it would seem. We are coming up on 50....a lifetime of misery, so we decided to finally be upfront of things because by hiding it, we've prolonged the misery instead of getting help.

Because of this condition, I trust no one. For me to wait before I trust somebody to open up, I'll die of old age (getting there). Besides, wait till they meet the Angry One and his buddies.