Our present over all mood is one of despair.

Thoughts and feelings of "doomed from the start" and "never had a chance" pollutes the mind. Born to flail.

Everything we've done has crumbled around us. "We are our own saboteur"- I've said that so many times only to come to find out it was true!

Ambitions and goals fizzled and changed, cycled in and out where they are easily forgotten or misplaced.

We feel bad for those that we have afflicted with our crazee... especially our offspring.

We feel incapable. I feel screwed. The mind is so stressed from knowing.

Actual "fear of the future" has overridden logic and common sense. We are frozen in uncertainty.

I can't see past the next 5 minutes.

Our system is so unstabile with the constant switching....nobody has no idea what we go through, we feel incapacitated but made to feel that's not an excuse. Life is giving us no choice.

We're stuck.

Just wish it would end, but the others won't let us. Everything is out of control.

We have no grasp of an identity... as a person, as a singularity, everyone wants something different that we do nothing.

Moments of inspiration are fleeting.

Switching tires us...we switch when someone enters the room, the phone rings, we see a picture, petting the dogs the littles like, cooking, hell....we switch when we are bored, it just happens, thinking we are multi tasking when we are multi screwing up- nothing gets done.

Our mind works on over drive and it's tiring out, it aches, it's hopeless.

We are broken but expected to function.

I need a drink.

[kecanoe]

Yes. "We are broken but expected to function". And not only by others but also by myself (whoever that is).

I also really identify with "We have no grasp of an identity... as a person, as a singularity, everyone wants something different that we do nothing. "

I am planning to go see daughter, and that relationship is murky. All kinds of anxiety over that-and who will actually spend time with her?

Oh, and skip the drink

Okay, this is so not me, but they have a right to their feelings, but it's NOT the overall consensus.

Yes, we switch like a strobe light! Lol