[someone1412]

I'm not really sure if I have DID, but most tests that I've been taking tell me that either I have GAD or DID.

It really started 5 years ago.
I was in my second sem of first year highschool, almost done with the term. In the middle of my project making, I had this mind swirl. It was like the world was spinning. Not exaggeratedly so. Just seemed like that to me. After several minutes, my view on the world began to feel unreal. Like, I was just watching a movie. It didn't really do anything bad, so I thought maybe this was some sort of hidden phase people want teens to discover by themselves or something. So I didn't say anything.
During my second year, my mood swings fluctuated wildly.
Third year: I began to obsess myself with books and had another world running. It wasn't that severe either. Or maybe that's just me. Anyway, I also got depressed that time. I also often have suicidal thoughts, but not to the point of attempting it. I always manage to drag it out till I calm myself down. Since I'm also gullible.
Fourth year... My mood swings got really wild, mostly due to an unhealthy relationship I had. I can't remember things much, despite having vivid childhood memories. There are times when I just stare at nothing in particular, for long periods of time.
But I still graduated with flying colors.
I thought college would be easy. But whatever condition I have suddenly began acting up much more severely than before. I feel like the world is not teally even there before. I feel dead, like I'm in purgatory. I can't see my future anymore. There are times when I enjoy school, but most of the time I just don't wanna go anymore. When I do go despite the condition, I can't understand anything despite my efforts. I really want to make my parents proud but I can focus very long on my subjects, much more so since I'm taking an engineering course. I don't know if I would end up crippled by it. I'm really frightened but I believe that I can face it properly. But I'm not sure about my grandma. She has been raised really strictly, and I think most of my fears come from her. I can't go to my mom, because she 's having her own problems now. I don't even know who my father is. If only I were 18 I feel like I could live by myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by someone1412

I'm not really sure if I have DID, but most tests that I've been taking tell me that either I have GAD or DID.

It really started 5 years ago.
I was in my second sem of first year highschool, almost done with the term. In the middle of my project making, I had this mind swirl. It was like the world was spinning. Not exaggeratedly so. Just seemed like that to me. After several minutes, my view on the world began to feel unreal. Like, I was just watching a movie. It didn't really do anything bad, so I thought maybe this was some sort of hidden phase people want teens to discover by themselves or something. So I didn't say anything.
During my second year, my mood swings fluctuated wildly.
Third year: I began to obsess myself with books and had another world running. It wasn't that severe either. Or maybe that's just me. Anyway, I also got depressed that time. I also often have suicidal thoughts, but not to the point of attempting it. I always manage to drag it out till I calm myself down. Since I'm also gullible.
Fourth year... My mood swings got really wild, mostly due to an unhealthy relationship I had. I can't remember things much, despite having vivid childhood memories. There are times when I just stare at nothing in particular, for long periods of time.
But I still graduated with flying colors.
I thought college would be easy. But whatever condition I have suddenly began acting up much more severely than before. I feel like the world is not teally even there before. I feel dead, like I'm in purgatory. I can't see my future anymore. There are times when I enjoy school, but most of the time I just don't wanna go anymore. When I do go despite the condition, I can't understand anything despite my efforts. I really want to make my parents proud but I can focus very long on my subjects, much more so since I'm taking an engineering course. I don't know if I would end up crippled by it. I'm really frightened but I believe that I can face it properly. But I'm not sure about my grandma. She has been raised really strictly, and I think most of my fears come from her. I can't go to my mom, because she 's having her own problems now. I don't even know who my father is. If only I were 18 I feel like I could live by myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

if you mean tests online please dont take them literally,they are not meant for diagnosis purposes and most are outdated by the time they are placed online. example here in the USA we just (in 2013) converted over to a new standard of what mental disorders america has and what the diagnostics\symptoms for each of them are complete with new tests and testing procedures. the result everything you find online is now no longer what america has for mental disorder tests.

the only way for sure for you to know what mental disorders you have is by contacting a treatment provider in your off the computer location, they will be able to administer tests that can tell you what your mental disorders are.

I dont know about your location but here in america DID is something that happens to very young children due to extreme trauma and doesnt suddenly start happening as a teen ager. Dissociation happens anytime for normal people as well as people who have physical health problems and mental problems too but here in ....my location .... DID is something that happens before the age of 5. here where I am DID is having alternate personalities that take control and affect every aspect of a persons life, (you can read more about what America goes by for DID in the link at the bottom of my post)

my suggestion is if this problem continues to bother you contact a treatment provider who can assess whether the problem is DID, anxiety or normal or what ever it may be.

[lucidity11]

Originally Posted by someone1412

I'm not really sure if I have DID, but most tests that I've been taking tell me that either I have GAD or DID.

It really started 5 years ago.
I was in my second sem of first year highschool, almost done with the term. In the middle of my project making, I had this mind swirl. It was like the world was spinning. Not exaggeratedly so. Just seemed like that to me. After several minutes, my view on the world began to feel unreal. Like, I was just watching a movie. It didn't really do anything bad, so I thought maybe this was some sort of hidden phase people want teens to discover by themselves or something. So I didn't say anything.
During my second year, my mood swings fluctuated wildly.
Third year: I began to obsess myself with books and had another world running. It wasn't that severe either. Or maybe that's just me. Anyway, I also got depressed that time. I also often have suicidal thoughts, but not to the point of attempting it. I always manage to drag it out till I calm myself down. Since I'm also gullible.
Fourth year... My mood swings got really wild, mostly due to an unhealthy relationship I had. I can't remember things much, despite having vivid childhood memories. There are times when I just stare at nothing in particular, for long periods of time.
But I still graduated with flying colors.
I thought college would be easy. But whatever condition I have suddenly began acting up much more severely than before. I feel like the world is not teally even there before. I feel dead, like I'm in purgatory. I can't see my future anymore. There are times when I enjoy school, but most of the time I just don't wanna go anymore. When I do go despite the condition, I can't understand anything despite my efforts. I really want to make my parents proud but I can focus very long on my subjects, much more so since I'm taking an engineering course. I don't know if I would end up crippled by it. I'm really frightened but I believe that I can face it properly. But I'm not sure about my grandma. She has been raised really strictly, and I think most of my fears come from her. I can't go to my mom, because she 's having her own problems now. I don't even know who my father is. If only I were 18 I feel like I could live by myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

Most colleges have student services that include limited counseling. Maybe you can speak to someone in the college for more info. Maybe your college offers counseling

Originally Posted by someone1412

I'm not really sure if I have DID, but most tests that I've been taking tell me that either I have GAD or DID.

It really started 5 years ago.
I was in my second sem of first year highschool, almost done with the term. In the middle of my project making, I had this mind swirl. It was like the world was spinning. Not exaggeratedly so. Just seemed like that to me. After several minutes, my view on the world began to feel unreal. Like, I was just watching a movie. It didn't really do anything bad, so I thought maybe this was some sort of hidden phase people want teens to discover by themselves or something. So I didn't say anything.
During my second year, my mood swings fluctuated wildly.
Third year: I began to obsess myself with books and had another world running. It wasn't that severe either. Or maybe that's just me. Anyway, I also got depressed that time. I also often have suicidal thoughts, but not to the point of attempting it. I always manage to drag it out till I calm myself down. Since I'm also gullible.
Fourth year... My mood swings got really wild, mostly due to an unhealthy relationship I had. I can't remember things much, despite having vivid childhood memories. There are times when I just stare at nothing in particular, for long periods of time.
But I still graduated with flying colors.
I thought college would be easy. But whatever condition I have suddenly began acting up much more severely than before. I feel like the world is not teally even there before. I feel dead, like I'm in purgatory. I can't see my future anymore. There are times when I enjoy school, but most of the time I just don't wanna go anymore. When I do go despite the condition, I can't understand anything despite my efforts. I really want to make my parents proud but I can focus very long on my subjects, much more so since I'm taking an engineering course. I don't know if I would end up crippled by it. I'm really frightened but I believe that I can face it properly. But I'm not sure about my grandma. She has been raised really strictly, and I think most of my fears come from her. I can't go to my mom, because she 's having her own problems now. I don't even know who my father is. If only I were 18 I feel like I could live by myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

Susie:

I'm sorry hon that you are feeling this way. I wish I can help, but all I can do is support you. What you've described can really be any number of things or a combination of conditions running co-morbid.

Does bipolar run in your family, or any other form of MI? Just wondering.

You are at a hormonal age, but it sounds much more than that. Please seek professional help... You should not have to suffer like this. (((Hugs)))