Our days are like hours, are minutes are like seconds.

We're nevr stabile.

Years fly by. Thats got to be a good thing.

We arent worthy of life.

We try?.but why.

We hate I hate yall hate.

I hurt.....

[1976kitchenfloor]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I hurt.....

Hello. Hey, kiddo, I know you hurt. I can feel it in your angry words and defiance. I truly hope you are going to get better and work out what you and your life can be about. Maybe if you stopped thinking about yourself as 'always being too much to handle' ,and started seeing yourself as a 'work in progress ' it might help you get away from focusing on your own negative self image. Nuture what is good and strong in you not what is angry and out of control.

Take care.

[Luce]

Hi there, AC2ers. I can relate to the rapid switching cycles... had them for years. It's a hard place to be in, especially when the whole system is triggered and swirling around in chaos. All you can do is hang on for the ride and wait for things to settle back into semi normality (ha!) again.

This whole 'life' thing? There is no achievement standard. You don't have to be or do anything specific to be deemed worthy of it. That you exist is worth enough (do you have any idea about the odds of you existing at all? Think of the odds of your conception and all the billions of poor spermies who lost out on the race. Out of all those potential alternates YOU won the race! Now YOU remain as their sole survivor, their sole representative and there are more than one of you so - bonus! It's like you won extra players in a Mario game! (gotta think of some upside to the whole shebang, right?))

Anyhoo... yeah. You are who you are and the only thing to do is make the most of what you've got. So you got some protectors or helpers in there? I betcha do. So call on them to give you a hand and help calm the system down. Sure there are fights and things sometimes, but everyone in there was created to protect - in their own way - so even though it may not seem like sometimes everyone really is on the same side when it comes down to it.
But yeah. Look after you. Take care of you, and each other. You are all you have, and you are enough. Even if it doesn't feel like it. You guys are a team. A family. And you can help each other out.