[lucidity11]

I went to social security on the advice of my therapist. I totally dissociated and looked like I was nuts. I left the building after talking to the clerk. He seemed understanding. I had to sit on the curb in the parking lot. I wasn't able to drive and was afraid that if someone saw me get into the drivers seat they might call the police. That's how bad I thought I was behaving. I finally was able to collect myself and get in and drive. I went home a applied on line. I am not sure I did that well either. I know I can get a job but I can't keep the same people going to work. Sometimes it feels like my first day all over again. I am not sure I can push myself to try to get social security. But I also don't think I am able to keep a job for any length of time before I fall apart. I just don't know why everyone is coming and going at will. It never used to be this way. It's exhausting.

[1976kitchenfloor]

Applying for SS sounds like a reasonable thing for you to do. At the very least, it will give you some time to work through things and not have to worry about paying for basic needs.
Take care.

Sherri: I tried SS for bipolar depression and it was denied. Sad thing is applying felt so fake, because we are so good at what we do....but suck at trying by being all switchy and stuff... like dealing with public life which is our undoing, being laughed at out of a job.

I'm just like where you are at hon. We've done decided though that we are doing this work thing and everyone can laugh as long as we produce. We are already getting said things by idiots that we just ignore of which some of us find funny. Some are devastated and some are pissed. This is life, our life. So....grab it by the horns and see where it goes.... that's our approach.

Weve been on job for a month now.... and boy its freaking hard, but hey, so has been the past, so this is nothing new...just got to do it.

Any how, we are willing to see where it takes us and for how long. Life has always been a social experiment....how much of us can you all take? Lol

Hang in there and do whats best hon. If anything, make a game out of it. Its more fun that way.

[Shaly78]

whispers; (hugs)....You need benefits just for that reason an extra layer of security, you have worked up until this point I am assuming, apply, and for your children as well if you have any , then everything will be okay....You can always once, approved continue to work