[Fallenangelrising29]

it started about 8 years ago probably, maybe a little less. I started to feel it ev ery once in awhile, this feeling of being outside of my body. Like when id touch my hand, i wasnt touching my hand with my hand. you understand??? then it would fade. but now Im like that all the time. im never fully inside my body, nevber fully inside my mind. What has caused this to become permanant???? What can be done to make it go away??? Is it a symptom of untreated ptsd, anxiety and depression over the years...anyone??

[flockpride]

It could be a lot of things. Do you know any grounding techniques?

Originally Posted by Fallenangelrising29

it started about 8 years ago probably, maybe a little less. I started to feel it ev ery once in awhile, this feeling of being outside of my body. Like when id touch my hand, i wasnt touching my hand with my hand. you understand??? then it would fade. but now Im like that all the time. im never fully inside my body, nevber fully inside my mind. What has caused this to become permanant???? What can be done to make it go away??? Is it a symptom of untreated ptsd, anxiety and depression over the years...anyone??

[1976kitchenfloor]

Originally Posted by Fallenangelrising29

it started about 8 years ago probably, maybe a little less. I started to feel it ev ery once in awhile, this feeling of being outside of my body. Like when id touch my hand, i wasnt touching my hand with my hand. you understand??? then it would fade. but now Im like that all the time. im never fully inside my body, nevber fully inside my mind. What has caused this to become permanant???? What can be done to make it go away??? Is it a symptom of untreated ptsd, anxiety and depression over the years...anyone??

I agree that you are expereincing some sort of dissociation. Does this happen when youre stressed or feel overwhelmed? PErhaps you are really worn out with stress and this ois happening ebcause of that. I encourage you to seek someone who can help you work with this and help you find ways to keep on point and stay connected in yourself and the moment you are in.

Take care now.

[Irine]

Originally Posted by Fallenangelrising29

it started about 8 years ago probably, maybe a little less. I started to feel it ev ery once in awhile, this feeling of being outside of my body. Like when id touch my hand, i wasnt touching my hand with my hand. you understand??? then it would fade. but now Im like that all the time. im never fully inside my body, nevber fully inside my mind. What has caused this to become permanant???? What can be done to make it go away??? Is it a symptom of untreated ptsd, anxiety and depression over the years...anyone??

From what i have learned - PTSD happens after a certain event, usually extremely stressful. To the extent you cannot really take it - that threatens your safety. Dissociative - there are many sorts...Dissociation - depersonalization disorder, dissociative fuge...Dissocietive personality...
What you describe does remind me of the depersonalization one - disconnection with the self...but it can be other things. Can this be PTSD? if you have experienced a traumatic event...

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Fallenangelrising29

it started about 8 years ago probably, maybe a little less. I started to feel it ev ery once in awhile, this feeling of being outside of my body. Like when id touch my hand, i wasnt touching my hand with my hand. you understand??? then it would fade. but now Im like that all the time. im never fully inside my body, nevber fully inside my mind. What has caused this to become permanant???? What can be done to make it go away??? Is it a symptom of untreated ptsd, anxiety and depression over the years...anyone??

first thing that jumps out at me is your word ...disassociation.

here in my location we have many words that people get confused about their usage...example there and they're and their.

well here in my location disassociation and dissociation frequently get used to mean each other when they actually have different definitions.

here where I am

disassociation (your word) means to purposely stop doing something, to purposely not do something....

example this morning I disassociated from my second cup of coffee (meaning I purposely did not drink a second cup of coffee)

another example I was invited to a dinner party, I disassociated myself from it (meaning I told the friend who invited me no and I did not go)

another example my wife and I periodically take part in sports activities. I tend to disassociate from the more violent ones. (meaning I will try the sports activity but if I find that activity is not for me I on purpose drop out of that activity. I on purpose give notice and stop doing that activity)

where as in my location dissociation (no a between the s's) in my location means there is a reaction to a trigger (feel numb, spaced out and disconnected due to a negative or positive trigger.)

example being over tired (the trigger) can make me feel numb, spaced out and disconnected (the reaction)

here in the USA dissociation is something that in general is completely normal. it becomes a mental disorder in the USA when it fits the diagnostic criteria in my link at the bottom of my post.

if you were in my location increase in severity means something is causing that (a trigger)

example if this was me my therapist would ask me...

what is different now in your life that wasnt before.
are you following your treatment plans.
have you changed medications (medications can cause ....side effects...like this)
Are you eating right
are you getting enough sleep

see what I mean my treatment provider would be trying to assess how and why the normal dissociation was escalating into causing me problems suddenly after having years of low to normal dissociation.

my suggestion is contact a treatment provider, they will be able to help you look at all aspects of your life, physical and mental health and help you to discover why your dissociative problems are increasing. they can also get you on a treatment plan that is best for you so that you will soon be feeling better.