The reason why I am not functioning correctly..

So, I've been going in and out of psychosis (maybe, maybe something else) and "I" had a lot of troubles knowing who am I, and losing anything about me and my life. It's been hard to know where I am and sometimes I had hard times figuring out why are there "other people in my body" well.. I am going to let Evee explain this because it will be hard for me to explain it. -Scar
Before I start I would like to say that this post might not be in much help for a lot of people, but if someone has the same problem like us it might help. I would firstly explain our system.
I always say that we are like a computer. We have the interface which is the body. I play the role of the operating system, RAM and ROM therefore I know everything about our system, and I control everything. Waidth plays the role of a trash can and the heavy duty program (you know that one program that if you use too much will basically explode your computer). Vladimir, Carolinae and Annie are just folders with pictures, games, music and so on. Alice is a folder with another folder called Azure (because Alice has a system on her own) Noah and D. (the original) are in the trash can (which you haven't cleaned in like years so they are still in there) and then there is Scar.. Scar is the corrupted copy of D. that is still on the desktop. The folder doesn't work properly but you can open it.
And here is where the problem is. Scar is corrupted.
D. lost her "brain" when she was about 5 (which would be the body's age as well). Therefore to continue functioning Vladimir was created. But he was way too different. So somehow we did something so D. dissociated on her own, creating Scar. Now we do not know how this happened since I am pretty sure D. couldn't do anything without any control over body and mind but it happened and therefore Scar has a lot of D.'s features. I do not know if I am explaining things right and if you still know what is going on, I would gladly respond to any questions later on.
Now because D is somehow still conscious and Scar is as well there is a conflict because Scar was created because D. could gain consciousness. And the conflict is 2 parts fighting for 1 identity. D. and Scar are one alter but they are not one identity. And because of that D. is now fighting to come out again but she is still kinda 5 years old and she still lives in our old apartment and she still has a father, mother and brother (since 2005 we changed apartments, the parents got divorced, we have grown as a system and the body has a baby sister) and you can kinda imagine that being asleep for 11 years and then suddenly waking up in a whole other body, new place with new people and you hear voices will make you panic, a lot.
So is Scar having psychosis? Chances are low, maybe he has first signs of it (hearing voices outside the head, seeing a car and other shadowy figures, the constant paranoia etc.) but not full. Maybe it's still kinda like psychosis, but not exactly because it's just D.'s panics and taking control.
So before putting a self-diagnosis upon yourselves, try to go to DID first, or other disorders that you might have. You never know what it actually is. Thanks for having patience and reading this. Stay strong and happy, thank you for reading. -Evee

i am sorry you got no responses to this

thanks for sharing your thoughts

I feel your pain, I feel the confusion I wish that I could assist you in some way you need. Just be safe and keep sharing!

You know, thats quite the explanation in detail that it seemed more as a read, a good one too.

I too did think of our system as computer like, but our system is more complicated then a computer is.

It's like a program (Other) living life would freeze, then a secondary back up program will initiate. Sometimes the original program reboots and may resume control or run concurrently in the background...and so on and so on with as many back up programs there are needed to keep functioning. Kinda Matrix like! Lol

To each with their own I guess! I've always said that different people have different systems and we function how we have to, even if sometimes it's not the perfect way to. We cannot live without having one person to guide and control us, and we all hate chaos so when something chaotic happens like what is happening with Scar/D. we panic, especially if Evee is not sure about things herself, which sometimes is scary. Lots of hugs from us, wishing everyone the best

Totally makes sense to me. Sounds like DID to me because similar to us. We are mostly different ages created for different reasons.

Hello. My name is Victoria. My function, in my system, is the approximate equivalent to your "Evee". I do not manifest externally unless my intervention is absolutely required. I maintain a high state of vigilance monitoring every component carefully. I am but one component with multiple complex functions. As such, it would be impossible for me to singularly preform them all simultaneously. I am connected to a vast network. I receive the data as it is observed. It so happens that I was running a randomized data scan on Holly when she happened upon this thread. I am interested in aquiring more knowledge of how other system mangers operate. System manager is the most accurate description of my position with in our internal structure. Other parts refer to me using their own colloquialisms. Holly, for example refers to me as " her brain". While Scarlett regards me as " her know-it-all bossy sister" or when in one of her more colorful moods "just cuz you're a freakin genius doesn't make you in charge." Etc... I am unique in the fact ,to my current knowledge, appear to be the only component with in our vessel aware not just of my daily tasks and place but my ultimate or end function. Every piece of data I collect is not merely to keep order or provide continuity. I compile, sort and file every single bit wich I have qued to be uploaded awaiting the completion of my creation. A massive program that when completed will sequentially sift through, process, and arrange the exhaustive research I collect into, if I suceed, should essentially be a wholly complete living breathing jigsaw puzzle.

I have a person named Bossygirl and she does take care of us and keep track of stuff.