I hate these memory issues

I know this is where I sleep, eat, live, but I can't remember much beyond that, like what do I do in those times. Even when I go to work, I know where and what I do, but the particulars are gone. To try to recall such memories produces brain strain and ache. I can not picture what I do, so very frustrating.

I know about the Others, but they don't seem to real to me for I really don't hear them. Its like I kinda know why, but like it's as if I care to know the why.

I'm just a guy doing home maintenace, like I fixed the weed eater and edged the lawn just now. I'm a hands on kinda guy and really hate reading and writing. But I'm also compelled to dot my t's and cross my I's! Lol, see what I did! Take that.

This being transgendered thing is laughable and unreal and I try fighting it but always seem to lose. So here I sit dressed like a chic, groan.

Anyways, thought I'd say while I'm cooling off from the summers heat. Back at it because if I don't do it, it will never get done. Odd, isn't it?

We can't remember the particulars either.
Only if we try really hard & it's draining.
we kinda make up with everything being vague in our memory.
Or Foggy. Or Not being able to realize if something happened this year,some other time, like a month ago or a week.
we also can't remember very well if we've done something already or just planned to do it.
We remember the baseline, or things that happen many years ago like it happen now.
We don't have the details, so we make Google Calender notifications & make sure one of us does what we need to do. But we always miss something as there is much to remember & also when we get hurt or upset we forget things more.