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Old Oct 24, 2016, 09:00 AM
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i just need some warm thoughts...
ill talk about what happened later if i can...

i just hope its not my fault...
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 09:24 AM
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 09:42 AM
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 10:54 AM
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thank you all...

my mom admitting herself to psychiatric hospital...
and i thought i would be the one instead she goe...

my whole life i try to protect her... but i cant even protect myswelf...
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 11:06 AM
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she saw my cuts and scars the other day and ended up cutting her own self... next day she showed me and i tried to talk to her about it because i couldnt really remember what had happened the night before and explained how its not a good thing...

she's so influence able... im thinking she may be borderline really... but i dunno why she would cut herself... it wasnt very bad but it was cuts.. and she used my knife which isnt the sharpest so i feel bad like its my fault she tried to do it... because she saw my secret and maybe thought if she did it it would make her feel better or if im doing it as smart as i am maybe nothing is wrong with it or if she did it then i would stop...

i dunno why i cant help my family more... if only i could just make everything right...
dunno why its my responsibility though... why i have always had to be the one to be the guardian... im just a boy, not supposed to have so much responsibility...
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 12:21 PM
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 12:51 PM
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she saw my cuts and scars the other day and ended up cutting her own self... next day she showed me and i tried to talk to her about it because i couldnt really remember what had happened the night before and explained how its not a good thing...

she's so influence able... im thinking she may be borderline really... but i dunno why she would cut herself... it wasnt very bad but it was cuts.. and she used my knife which isnt the sharpest so i feel bad like its my fault she tried to do it... because she saw my secret and maybe thought if she did it it would make her feel better or if im doing it as smart as i am maybe nothing is wrong with it or if she did it then i would stop...

i dunno why i cant help my family more... if only i could just make everything right...
dunno why its my responsibility though... why i have always had to be the one to be the guardian... im just a boy, not supposed to have so much responsibility...
heres something that happened to someone I know. they found out their loved one was cutting so they cut just to show them how it felt to others when one makes the decision to cut.

heres something else. someone I know is a self injurer. their parent discovered it and did it thinking well if they thinks its ok to solve their problems this way then its ok for me to solve my problems this way.

heres another something else.. someone I know decided to self injure. they had seen someone else self injury scars so knew they could find what they needed in that persons room.

my point in all these situations did the one who showed the scars put the self injury utensil in the other persons hand and say do it.....no in each case they made their own choice to do it.

my point you are not to blame.
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 02:13 PM
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i cant tell if this is just another bad dream or if this is real...

i think its real though and it makes me so sad that i cant help her...

i hope she will get good care and help with finding resources and getting lined up with a good pdoc and therapist... i've been trying to encourage her to see them for a good while now...
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Old Oct 24, 2016, 02:14 PM
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i dont like my mom being away... dunno why i feel like im supposed to protect her so much...

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Old Oct 24, 2016, 05:26 PM
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have you ever heard this song before...?


its Fragile, by techn9ne... kendrick lamar... mayday... kendall morgan


im glad i have therapy tomorow... hope she can help...
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