trying to reflect

elevatedsoul · Dec 05, 2016, 09:24 AM

i've been trying to do a lot of self reflecting lately...
i've seen a lot of things, some things im not so comfortable with..
but some things i feel i can't or shouldn't deny anymore
im just scared of the repercussions..
and don't know what i'm supposed to do if they're true

feeling crowded

leejosepho · Dec 05, 2016, 10:32 AM

There are times when I find myself "looking away" from looking at myself, and I share that because I no longer beat myself up with something like this: "It it in humility that we ponder our arrogance or is it in arrogance that we ponder our humility?"

However, I do go ahead and take a look as long as I am first able to believe I honestly want to better understand myself and how I might better fit myself in relation to others.

Dec 05, 2016, 11:08 AM

I try to reflect and is left bewildered and confused because the past is a fragmented mixed up unsolved puzzle. Feelings of despair and scared grief over takes leaving me asking...why?

All this makes me feel sad and realize that my life is pointless.

So we quit reflecting.

leejosepho · Dec 05, 2016, 12:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

...the past is a fragmented mixed up unsolved puzzle. Feelings of despair and scared grief over takes leaving me asking...why?

Although I do have some answers that satisfy me there, my neurology renders me mechanically-minded in ways that enable me to simply assess my own needs for training or repair or whatever in order to hopefully offer more to those who follow than had first been shown to me...and there is where I find reason for trying to continue on.