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View Poll Results: What is the experience of 'losing time' like for you? | ||||||
I blank out and 'come to' at a later time and place |
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I an unaware I have lost time until I try to account for what I have done during the day |
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I experience a mixture of 'blanking out' and being unaware of losing time |
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I do not lost time - I am always co-conscious and aware |
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1 | 10.00% | |||
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Other (please explain) |
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I am curious about how different systems experience amnesiac periods when other alters are active. What is 'losing time' like for you? Do you 'blank out' and then come to at a later time, in a different place? How do you reorient yourself when that happens? Or do you not realize you have lost time until you try to review your day and realize you can't account for certain periods of time?
Feel free to give some examples of what happens when you lose time. |
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Dang. Sorry for the typo. How annoying!
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i experience extremely fuzzy times. i won't always be able to recount details and forget things that happened yesterday or days before and have more of an issue with time distortion and not always being able to tell what happened when. i also have it where might be kind of aware in the moment but then over hours or days will forget.
my others don't come out and live their own lives though, so i haven't ever woken up in strange places or found things i didn't recall buying (except recently a box of froot loops lol). mine is a mix of time distortion/not recalling things and co-consciousness. i haven't had to really reorient myself since nothing happens externally, it's all internal. |
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I mostly experience fuzzy time. Most days are very fuzzy for me. I lose time a lot... mostly by being unable to account for it. Occasionally I have a more 'in your face' awareness of lost time, but it isn't typical for me.
Many times a day I set out to do something and then later 'become aware of myself' doing something completely different (with no memory of choosing it or consciously doing it). it's just all fuzzy and not really in my control. |
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second one
and it's so embarrassing it's like trying to prove you are alive. many times I feel like that.. like we're dead and it's actually all a dream |
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I experience a mixture of 'blanking out' and being unaware of losing time
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It is really hard for me to pick just one, so I picked "other"
Right now, I'm trying to sort out the whole missing time thing. A lot of times, it's just fuzzy and time feels weird. It's not like I can't account for it, it just feels weird. Yesterday may seem like last week. It feels like 2 years ago was a couple of months ago. I don't know if that's considered "losing" time, but it is just fuzzy and fragmented. There have been a couple of major time lapses, that I can account for, that I have not been "me" - if that is considered "losing" time. I was in my kitchen cleaning one night, and I had a song on repeat that really spoke to a part of me. I remember looking at the clock and seeing what time it was, around 11:00 I think, wiping off the countertop. The next thing I remember, looking at the clock again and it was after 1:00 and I was headed to bed. I don't remember the time being a "thing" until later. My son told me that he came into the kitchen and I was crying and we had a conversation. I have no memory of it. I only remember cleaning up the kitchen, and then going to bed. There is no memory of talking with him or crying. There have been many times that I have met with my counselor and felt like I was there, in the moment. I can remember being there, and him asking me if I would remember what we talked about, and me answering that I felt fine and I thought I would. That is usually very clear in my memory up to that point. After that point, it turns into fragments that I can't put together. It's kind of like the chapters in the index of a book with no content. Not sure if that fits in here or not. This past Monday, on my way to meet with him, I blanked out driving. I remember going through a stop light on the way there. The next thing I know, I'm at a dead end at the end of the road I was on, trying to figure out where I was. That was pretty scary! Thank goodness for the dead end! It felt like I "woke up" or something like that. I don't have words to describe it. Thank goodness also, that I was on my way to meet with him. My mom came to stay with us a while back. She has dentures and takes them out at night. They were in the room she was sleeping in. When she got up the next morning, they were gone. We couldn't figure out what had happened to them. My husband is bad to sleep walk, and his OCD kicks in and he throws stuff away (cleans) in his sleep sometimes. (I know!) Going with that, we searched all the garbage cans inside and out and couldn't find them. For some reason, in the back of my mind, I kept hearing/knowing that they had been flushed down the toilet in our bathroom. I had no idea why I was thinking that. She left, dentureless and not very happy! I just kept thinking they had been flushed. When my husband got home, I asked him if he could look and see. The toilet was having issues. Well, they were there in the very bottom, stuck. He asked me how I knew they were there, and I couldn't really answer him. I just knew. I also discovered a not so nice word carved into the doorframe of the bathroom, which I believe were my feelings toward her at the time. Sleepwalking or lost time. Not sure what that would be. These may fit into one of the other categories, but I couldn't figure out which one.
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with me it wasnt like blanking out or blanking out like someone with alcohol problems would (pass out come to and know or not know what happened. but everyone else around the person has stories of what happened)
for me it was like nothing out of the ordinary was happening. I would get my dissociation feelings of feeling numb, spaced out disconnected then still having that feeling notice I was somewhere else doing something else. for me this was normal so it was normal for me to not pay attention to it and continue on with my life. ok lets see did I do my homework yet yup ok guess I get to go play outside with my friends now, ok did I mop the kitchen floor yet nope guess thats what Im doing now, did I remember to get milk at the store yup there it is ok mashed potatoes for dinner tonight... same with those I was co conscious with. it was feeling numb and spacy then wow rainy is sitting there with her blanket and Im feeling far away but knowing what Rainy is doing for us. ok now Im still numb and spacy but its my turn to cook dinner so off we go to the kitchen to cook dinner. my point I was like this since before I was 5 years old so to me it was completely normal to just go on with my life like normal. in other words it wasnt this major traumatic omg I cant remember this or that what is going on what.... it was just how I was and what was my normal. |
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TR, your post made me chuckle. It sounds like you definitely have a few issues with time and time loss there! I can relate to your anecdotes, even the nagging feeling about something (like the dentures) that turns out to be right.
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i know what i talk about kind of just cuz i bring in a journal at times..though other things are said cuz one thing leads to another topic, etc. there is definitely dissociation that happens in sessions whether i realize it or not. i don't completely forget sessions though, just a lot of it. then i try to sort through things to figure out what was said, what was important to remember....and it doesn't work so well. gets confusing. |
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It is confusing and completely aggravating!! I've tried to journal right when I get home, when things are still in that state, about what we talked about. Most times it seems to be one point that stood out, and I journal circles around it.
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(The second one)
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I can lose time but I more often than not am co conscious and things get really fuzzy or I forget them afterward. because of that my short term memory is REALLY bad.
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It depends... This last year or so we fixed the whole co-concious thing.
Previous to that it was mostly fuzzy, and when there was time lost, the others figured out to leave me postitnotes to help me along and stop me completely freaking out. |
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