Survival

Regardless of what we...I..us express on here.....we are always in survival mode.

Every thought...gripe...whine is a private expression, but ultimately... what discussed here has no bearing on the real time life of our system.

Only here are we free....but ultimately....we are alone and with no outsider undestanding/compassion/caring....just ridicule.

It's us against everyone. We must survive even though we have Others that want to mortaly quit.

The only emotion that keeps us tensioned is kick ***.

We need yo bury the trauma...pain...Others...distractions...alters...and focus on kicking *** which is what a man is suppose to do. Wearing pink? **** that. Puke my bloody liver out.

Say good bye to to us Other beeches.

C ya.

i wanna quit drinking :x it makes things worse i think

but its so hard when you just need to shut things off it works so well...
to be normal? or to be sober! that is the question... know what im sayin?