[dissociative]

What is this now? I've not been doing well lately, both physically and psychologically. And there were a lot of triggers around me, some of which I'm aware of, others maybe not. I'm depressed, having weird dreams, cannot sleep normal hours, and I think I was feeling close to a panic attack a few times. I feel a lot of rage when on my own. Been also for some reason thinking about my abuse, or rather the parts I remember of it, and not sure I want to deal with it at all. But when I go out, I mostly feel like daydreaming. Literally like sleepwalking. I catch myself sometimes thinking I must look ridiculous. Buying things at a supermarket and not really being there, so that collecting the stuff takes too long - or so it feels. Maybe that's what it feels when you are on drugs, I'm not sure because I never took any. I feel like walking the streets while being asleep. Of course I still get things done, so I really am awake, just in a different level of consciousness. I understand I'm doing that to be able to function at all. How do I make sure this doesn't get out of hand?Well I will probably manage, like I did before, but it feels weird just because I caught myself doing it, and I noticed people noticing.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by dissociative

What is this now? I've not been doing well lately, both physically and psychologically. And there were a lot of triggers around me, some of which I'm aware of, others maybe not. I'm depressed, having weird dreams, cannot sleep normal hours, and I think I was feeling close to a panic attack a few times. I feel a lot of rage when on my own. Been also for some reason thinking about my abuse, or rather the parts I remember of it, and not sure I want to deal with it at all. But when I go out, I mostly feel like daydreaming. Literally like sleepwalking. I catch myself sometimes thinking I must look ridiculous. Buying things at a supermarket and not really being there, so that collecting the stuff takes too long - or so it feels. Maybe that's what it feels when you are on drugs, I'm not sure because I never took any. I feel like walking the streets while being asleep. Of course I still get things done, so I really am awake, just in a different level of consciousness. I understand I'm doing that to be able to function at all. How do I make sure this doesn't get out of hand?Well I will probably manage, like I did before, but it feels weird just because I caught myself doing it, and I noticed people noticing.

how do you make sure this doesnt get out of hand... by contacting yours (or a ) treatment provider in your location, they will be able to diagnose what this is in you and get you treated for it. for example...

in me my treatment providers called it sleep deprivation, anxiety and depression. getting on an antidepressant helped get me back on track.