Now that our head has cleared for over a week....it's a freaking traffic jam/marching band in here.

We are out of control talking yelling thinking expressing nonstop all at once living in a constant daze.

This is why we drink...to sedate the mind. To take the edge of living off...to pacify. Now it's too bright.

It's gonna get us fired someone yelling curse words on the job, walking around talking to ourselves, having an "out to lunch" look on our face.

Don't know what to do.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Now that our head has cleared for over a week....it's a freaking traffic jam/marching band in here.

We are out of control talking yelling thinking expressing nonstop all at once living in a constant daze.

This is why we drink...to sedate the mind. To take the edge of living off...to pacify. Now it's too bright.

It's gonna get us fired someone yelling curse words on the job, walking around talking to ourselves, having an "out to lunch" look on our face.

Don't know what to do.

(((AC)))

I also use alcohol to numb the response of reacting to a situation. It's always been safer for me to sip until I find that place that I have my hand on the door of the tornado pit. Waiting. Wondering if it's going to be ok.

I understand. I'm really right there right now. I don't want to live like this anymore. Truly.

I have no idea what a normal (I know normal is a sliding scale) family looks like or feels like.

I am tired of self medicating myself, before the fact, in fear of what could happen.

Mine is not really a traffic jam, where I am right now, it more like a 3 ring monkey circus.

I do have hope. I guess that's the saving grace here.

[elevatedsoul]

pain is so much when sober, i dont like it but i dont like to drink either
i dunno what to do, smoking weed is good...

[Fuzzybear]

(((( AC ))))

Papa bear doesn't allow me much happy juice - alcohol grr

He's more of a "daddy" than the freakin paternal unit was

[dlantern]

I feel a lot of spiritual guilt like I can't handle it vomit issue trigger the ed not that I have ed someone had it family of origins then there is instability. It was the trendy thing for us in 2012 now it is out right disastrous. It might be the brand, it might be that I've out grown drinking alone at home. I also feel like a newbie awkward teen that can't get home after a few like I'll get a big ole fight from those inside.

Wellll....last night we enjoyed boiled crayfish with a 6 pack of Coronas. Yummm.

It was just a bevarage and we are alright today.