[ACrystalGem]

I'm a Christian, and pray most mornings & nights. I've always prayed as Outside Me - the person I think of as the real me, but a few weeks ago I started noticing something. One of my alters, Forest Jacq wanted to speak up. At first I thought it was disrespectful to God - but the real reason was that I didn't 100% believe my alters can make sense to anyone but me. After pushing her down for a while, Forest Jacq slid into taking over my prayers last night. I still felt a bit strange about it, but I know God loves all of me, so he hopefully won't be negative about it. It has also helped me to accept that my alters are real to others & not just me. Even though I've discussed things on here before, I still sometimes feel like I'm making it all up - denial is very attractive when the truth of what happened to me is so horrible. So I wanted to share this. I'm amazed at the progress I've made with DID since coming on here - it's the only place on or offline where I can talk about it. Thanks for reading.

[yagr]

Originally Posted by ACrystalGem

I'm a Christian,

Full disclosure: I do not identify as a Christian. I don't think that matters for the purposes of my response but thought I'd mention it in the event that it matters to you.

Originally Posted by ACrystalGem

and pray most mornings & nights. I've always prayed as Outside Me - the person I think of as the real me, but a few weeks ago I started noticing something. One of my alters, Forest Jacq wanted to speak up. At first I thought it was disrespectful to God - but the real reason was that I didn't 100% believe my alters can make sense to anyone but me. After pushing her down for a while, Forest Jacq slid into taking over my prayers last night. I still felt a bit strange about it, but I know God loves all of me, so he hopefully won't be negative about it. It has also helped me to accept that my alters are real to others & not just me. Even though I've discussed things on here before, I still sometimes feel like I'm making it all up - denial is very attractive when the truth of what happened to me is so horrible. So I wanted to share this.

Though my spirituality is of paramount importance to me, a young alter of mine is my go to when I have a question of a spiritual nature. She is amazing and can see spiritual truth with an ease that I envy. Yeah, yeah, I know that she's a part of me but...well, you know. Anyway, we both practice our 'religion', separately and together and have done nothing but gain strength from our respective practice. I, personally, applaud your support for Forest Jacq and cannot imagine a loving God finding anything but joy in FJ's faith and prayers.

[Solnutty]

I am a Christian. Several of my alters are also Christian and several are not. I think it's a wonderful thing that one of them wanted to pray. I hope for that for all of mine. Some pray independently, some watch and listen when I go to church because they are curious or they are also learning along with me, some read the Bible with me or on their own. I've had some beautiful experiences with my insiders concerning God that resonate so deeply, they are some of my most cherished memories. I watched one of my most irreverent alters develope a conscience and recognize his need for God's love over a period of years, and then watched him just be transformed in such a beautiful way--for the first time, when he took hold of that forgiveness and love of God, he felt JOY. He'd never felt that before. And all his fears and self hatred left him. Remembering it still brings tears to my eyes. It was such a massive experience the whole system witnessed it. Prayer is a good thing for everyone.

We range from kjv only to agnostic to witch to evil....so we hope God accepts at least some of us....how that works no idea.

I find having opposing inner beliefs soul twisting.

I'm glad that you all can get along.