[elevatedsoul]

its bad.. but its a good thing right now...
i cant cope... im not here
too much is wrong
trying too hard...
very few resources
few options available...

need transportation... and a telephone...
so i can go to them, and call them...

every thing is fine
but its really not...
i just want to be ok, but i guess im ok... im just not really...

not able to get the stuff set up with the day program because of these problems... but i have scheduled therapist appointment with new one, hopefully i will be able to make that work...

this adds too much stress to me... i dont want to have to worry about it...
i just want help... why is it so hard, have to deal with life...
im not liking lifes deliveries... thinking that its not right, its not supposed to be like this.
its like i am being tortured... and dangling the help in front of me, just out of reach... while hurting me more too...

reinforce the complexes in the brain.... it will never go away...

i dont have a life at all, like i have never had any choice in life, fighting for freedom... want to break free... let me out of this prison...