T triggering dissociation

Has your T ever done something advertantly or inadvertantly to trigger u to dissociate? If advertantly, how did you feel?

ev

When I had counselling sessions for my depression I used to walk out of the room and would have depersonalisation for the next few days at least. And I often couldn't remember what had gone on in the session properly, it was all hazy and I had only a vague idea of what happened. But that's all. I imagine everyone feels like that.

As for it being triggered on purpose, I wouldn't enjoy that. I hope your permission was asked for first

yessssssssssssss nearly every session. The fogginess, the not being able to hear T or think, spacing out... usually have to be "brought back to the room" or do grounding excercises.

Then there is the switching...
Tho, it may have been on purpose because the host really doesn't know anything. We have to talk through her. But the adults rarely get triggered out into being, it is usually the kids, which are moody and not good talkers. Sometimes I am there, when no one else will speak up. The last time it happened one of the quiet kids came out and took over (several are co-conscious). And she cried because she thought she was in trouble.
I do have to wonder at times about T, because when the kids were out, the T would use words that she knows are triggers - but the kids (as in life) couldn't tell her not to use them. It does boggle the mind. I would like to tell her off for that, but I am rarely around then. It always makes the kids feel bad - like they are dirty and being used, and that they have to stay silent and let it happen. I don't know how the T would react if we ever managed to tell her that. But I don't see how she could not know. And the weird thing is, she never uses those words when the adults are out or the host. It felt like she was doing it on purpose to either anger the kids, or to maybe "shake them out" of being kids and be the adults? It doesn't make a lot of sense.
Hardest part is functioning afterwards when one 12 or younger is behind the wheel and returning to work. We have had to sit in the office parking lot for a while to get back to who we should be. Couldn't sit in front of the T's office - didn't want to be seen having to pull ourselves back together.
Narrator of Kiya

i had an interview with a therapist to see whether we could work together. she tried to get me to dissociate. i walked out and didn't go back. she was not the therapist for me.

((Esther))

I have been triggered inadvertently a few times during conversation with T.

T was determined to figure out how it happened and we examined the discussion leading into the dissociation each time. He said that being retraumatized is not healing.

Never deliberately.

Yes,(inadvertantly) that's how it was discovered that I even did dissociate.

My T. said he suspected that I did dissociate but then after seeing it, he was convinced. I didn't realize I did it. It's been a part of me for as long as I can remember..... guess I thought it was how everyone was.

Can I ask-- have you dissociated because of something your T. did?.... you don't have to answer if not comfortable.

EV--

mandy

My pdoc... 2 sessions ago.. on purpose "scared" me.. to trigger a switch.. he was "testing the waters".. from information by T. I am used to him being very gentle natured.. and he put on an angry face and then pushed very hard...
It made me feel betrayed.. and hurt.. but I have gotten over it - he is a my rock.. so I do not want to lose him.

My T, recognizes my alters... and sometimes.. we agree to him talking to a specific alter - one that takes care of all of us.. so that things can be arranged..

When I leave his office, I have to make sure I am "back" enough to drive...

yeah, ive dissociated in therapy i think. I try to avoid it but i think it makes it worse. Last session i think my T did something on purpose to trigger me but i dont know why. It made me feel doubtful / unsafe / maybe questioning if she believes me.