[elevatedsoul]

Is it possible for your mind to be dissociated from itself and blocking large parts without other personalities?

Im not running on all cylinders...

I feel stuck in time with separation from life experience and memories and memory processing?

But im so used to it because i have alwsys been like this.

That i forget...

Does anyone know why a mind would collapse like that?
Or how to make it better... or learn to live?

I need to get myself together because i want to move out soon..

[elevatedsoul]

Im just feeling unstable and perspective keeps changing

Its not cool... i need to make it settle down on the relaxed side and get out of this heavy trap im in

Who am i supposed to be? You know?
Sigh.. i dunno, maybe im not real

[RubyRae]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

Is it possible for your mind to be dissociated from itself and blocking large parts without other personalities?
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Yep,it is possible.Dissociation doesn't just mean DID.I'm not even sure why people sometimes automatically think if someone dissociates it must be DID or there must be other 'personalities'.

You have PTSD,remember me telling you dissociation can be,and commonly is a part of it?

[elevatedsoul]

yeah, but its so bad...

i dont know how i am surviving...

[RubyRae]

Then you need to be working with your therapist on how to manage it.

You say you don't know how you're surviving but isn't that what dissociation is there for,a way to avoid,not feel,not remember or deal with painful things?

[dlantern]

Supression happens of memories of the way things was and those who made it feel sad situation life changes etc.

[elevatedsoul]

i dont know if what im becoming is good...

cant stop it though... unless i regress accidently..
which sucks

im tired
like.. my mind .. i gotta make it stop cause its driving me crazy...
ruining my life

[elevatedsoul]

pressured..
but ill be oke..
guess i have no choice, cant wait on disability anylonger..
just wish they would tell me a court date already

dont know if i can do this :/

[RubyRae]

I hope you get disability since that's what you want.

But...you need to make plans in case you don't instead of putting your eggs in one basket.I believe there's jobs that you could work if you tried.Even if it's something like cleaning offices or buildings at night after they close.That way you would be working by yourself.I have worked those types of jobs in the past and I definitely made more than if I had gone on disability.And then I worked up to other jobs and gradually was able to work with others and even with the public.

Sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet and start somewhere.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

pressured..
but ill be oke..
guess i have no choice, cant wait on disability anylonger..
just wish they would tell me a court date already

dont know if i can do this :/

When you said "I feel stuck in time with separation from life experience and memories and memory processing" it brought back a feeling of emptyness for me. It was when I had isolated myself from friend, family, everyone. Not physically isolated but intellectually and emotionally isolated. I moved through time appearing normal to those who knew me but that wasn't me. I had a completely different mind set in my head. I could see myself interacting with them. It was so that everything looked ok. I was alone. I felt alone and wanted to go. Circumstances pulled me back. A miracle pulled me back. Don't become overwhelmed by life. live life in present moments and not the past or future.That that is what helped me. And that is what might help me now.

[elevatedsoul]

yes claritytoo...

thats how i am... i cant stop it... im fighting and trying but keep falling into the trench...
but becoming dangerously further... scared im going to do something bad one of these times...