[MoonOutOfMind]

I self diagnosed myself with derealization and depersonalization whenever I explain to a doctor or a friend they just give me this puzzled expression.

I feel confused all the time and I keep forgetting where I am what I'm doing its like my brain is in this fog and I don't even recognize my own voice or face.

I've had people tell me to "get over it" or they roll their eyes at me annoyed.

I don't feel attached to this world I feel like I'm just watching and it's driving me insane, I don't know if I'm dying if I have a brain tumor or what's going on. I'm just mentally not here and I just want to be connected again.

Everything is so numb and bright this world makes no sense neither do I, and no one seems to understand I just get this look like I'm crazy.

I just want people to understand this unreal feeling and be a little bit more senestive towards people with Dr, Dp and other dissociative disorders.

if it helps, it's not just you.

people just don't understand mental ilnesses.

if they've not been their, well then that's it.. they just don't want to know and judge

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by MoonOutOfMind

I self diagnosed myself with derealization and depersonalization whenever I explain to a doctor or a friend they just give me this puzzled expression.

I feel confused all the time and I keep forgetting where I am what I'm doing its like my brain is in this fog and I don't even recognize my own voice or face.

I've had people tell me to "get over it" or they roll their eyes at me annoyed.

I don't feel attached to this world I feel like I'm just watching and it's driving me insane, I don't know if I'm dying if I have a brain tumor or what's going on. I'm just mentally not here and I just want to be connected again.

Everything is so numb and bright this world makes no sense neither do I, and no one seems to understand I just get this look like I'm crazy.

I just want people to understand this unreal feeling and be a little bit more senestive towards people with Dr, Dp and other dissociative disorders.

Yup sometimes that happens. what helps me is that I dont go around telling everyone I know that I have depersonalization/ derealization disorder.am very choosy on who knows about my mental and physical health. you see here where I live we have privacy laws and health issues fall into that area of private and protected information. that means no one except my doctors really need to know what my health issues are...

from there when I do talk about my having these problems I dont use the wording and problems that are things a person can google or read in a book. theres more to having these problems then what can be found online or in books.

for example instead of saying to my doctors that I dont feel attached to this world (which can mislead them to thinking I am having a psychosis related problem in me) I tell them in details what the world feels like to me, what my emotions are, what I am seeing, hearing.... things that only I can explain to them because its inside me. instead of saying I dont recognize my voice or face (which is a symptom of many physical and mental health problems) I got into detail with my doctors on what my voice sounds like to me, what my face looks like to me, what it feels like physically and mentally when I am talking/ making sounds, what I am actually seeing when I look in the mirror right down to minute details like colors, expressions, what I am thinking,

I also tell my doctors what I was the triggering event that caused me to have these dissociation symptoms. (here in my location dissociation disorders have a common element of dissociation, and here where I am dissociation is a normal reaction to a trigger)

after my doctors have all the information ....about me.... not about what I may have found online or in a book and self diagnosed, but the actual dissociative problems in me that are not listed online and in books, they dont look at me strangely anymore, they help me/ treat me for those problems...

my point and suggestion ... there is more to having dissociative disorders then what a person can find online or in books and self diagnose, things only a doctor, therapist or psychiatrist knows, maybe its time to go beyond what you have self diagnosed and tell your doctors about those problems in you that cant be found in diagnostic manuals and online, this way they will be able to treat you maybe even not look strangely at you.

my other suggestion is maybe be more choosy / selective on who you talk to about your health problems. if you are here in the USA these fall under private and protected so they dont really need to know unless you tell them and if you know that they are not receptive to knowing then no sense in putting yourself through more stress right. its ok to be selfish when it comes to who you tell about having mental or physical health problems. those that ask me and I know they are not receptive to it, I just tell them "its a private matter, thanks for offering a shoulder but theres nothing you can do to help at this time." their response is usually give me a hug or say to me ...ok Im here if you need me..."

[dlantern]

Don't fall for the bait everyone gets the same things. Either it is overt or ask for testing in order to get help. There is help available just be able to do things to get it even if you need someone to talk to your health provider.