I don’t know if this is the section to put this in, but I have suffered from derealization for a while. I’ll find myself with terrible memory, and sometimes disoriented. It feels like my eyesight is glossed over, and everything on the outside is fake. I always just feel off, and I can’t stand it. I used to have pretty severe anxiety, but it has calmed down quite a bit. Every now and then, I’ll have those anxious days, but usually I’m fine.
I’m having a hard time typing this right now. I just can’t focus, I can’t decide what to type. I always feel so out there. I’m a big stargazing fan, and it’s only because I feel like somewhere out there, in space, everything is ok. I have a hard time communicating sometimes, and I’ll try to fix it, but I always resort to sleeping because I feel like when I wake up, I’ll have a new start to the day and everything will be ok. Whenever I wake up from naps though, I dissociate incredibly bad. It’s also when I read a book, or something like that. Everytjme I take a short break from reality, it takes me quite a while to come back. Please tell me that everything is ok, and please tell me that this is normal.

[Amyjay]

Hello, I don't know what to tell you as I don't know if it is normal or not. I know I feel like that a lot but it doesn't bother me, I think it is kind of a nice feeling, I don't have to worry about anything. Sometimes it is annoying I suppose, like in a meeting the other day I was asked a question and I was just busy spacing out, not caring because it all felt so faraway and unimportant, but at the same time I knew I was supposed to be a professional and give a professional answer! So it was annoying at that time because I would have like to keep not thinking and floating away in my mind rather than try to connect with what was going on. I think I just said "My mind is blank at the moment" and let the conversation pass to someone else.
So I don't know if it is normal, but it is a bit normal for me. Someone else might have some different words to give you.
Welcome!

Originally Posted by Sonic645

I don’t know if this is the section to put this in, but I have suffered from derealization for a while. I’ll find myself with terrible memory, and sometimes disoriented. It feels like my eyesight is glossed over, and everything on the outside is fake. I always just feel off, and I can’t stand it. I used to have pretty severe anxiety, but it has calmed down quite a bit. Every now and then, I’ll have those anxious days, but usually I’m fine.
I’m having a hard time typing this right now. I just can’t focus, I can’t decide what to type. I always feel so out there. I’m a big stargazing fan, and it’s only because I feel like somewhere out there, in space, everything is ok. I have a hard time communicating sometimes, and I’ll try to fix it, but I always resort to sleeping because I feel like when I wake up, I’ll have a new start to the day and everything will be ok. Whenever I wake up from naps though, I dissociate incredibly bad. It’s also when I read a book, or something like that. Everytjme I take a short break from reality, it takes me quite a while to come back. Please tell me that everything is ok, and please tell me that this is normal.

Hey hi Sonic...it’s a great section to put it in.

You sound like me a lot. I’ve grown to accept it through the years, but often caught up in the feeling....staring....wondering what normal is like....

Reading is hard, too...so much so that I quit. I can start reading word for word, line for line, and come to hours and chapters later to find I have no memory of time and content except the first few sentences or words, so I would reread forcing to stay present: always thought it was something like ADD. Eventually I find myself reading everything over and over with just bits sticking to memory: got to be too much work, frustrating, and depressing enough just to give up.

All I can say is, it is okay for me, and that it’s my normal- 50 years running.

I hope you get to feeling better. Have you had a medical/psych work up?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Sonic645

I don’t know if this is the section to put this in, but I have suffered from derealization for a while. I’ll find myself with terrible memory, and sometimes disoriented. It feels like my eyesight is glossed over, and everything on the outside is fake. I always just feel off, and I can’t stand it. I used to have pretty severe anxiety, but it has calmed down quite a bit. Every now and then, I’ll have those anxious days, but usually I’m fine.
I’m having a hard time typing this right now. I just can’t focus, I can’t decide what to type. I always feel so out there. I’m a big stargazing fan, and it’s only because I feel like somewhere out there, in space, everything is ok. I have a hard time communicating sometimes, and I’ll try to fix it, but I always resort to sleeping because I feel like when I wake up, I’ll have a new start to the day and everything will be ok. Whenever I wake up from naps though, I dissociate incredibly bad. It’s also when I read a book, or something like that. Everytjme I take a short break from reality, it takes me quite a while to come back. Please tell me that everything is ok, and please tell me that this is normal.

welcome... at first I was a bit confused by your wording glossed over. heres why when I am having my dissociative problem with my eyes I dont see a "gloss" here where I am glossed over means to have a shiny surface, I asked my wife if she ever noticed my eyes being glossed over and she said no my eyes are naturally shiny because they have wet fluid over them to keep them from getting dry and itchy. then she said something that got me thinking. she said sometimes I have a vacant look. its not anything that I can see for myself but others may see that there is a lack of emotion to my eyes and face. when I have a vision problem because of my dissociation it looks cloudy not shiny, you know like if you were outside on a foggy day and everything has that white foggy look to it. is that what you mean... glossed over as in sort of foggy and not what my first impression of the wording (shiny)

reason I am asking is because I also have MS this is a nerve degenerative disease and sometimes I will see things very distorted and shiny and in minute details because of it. if you mean this kind of glossed over my suggestion is contact your doctors so that they can check things out physically just in case.

I dont dissociate when i wake up but I do sometimes get this .....side effect..... called lack of effect and endophin like feeling when I have slept too much. its like dissociation but not for me. I now dont take naps because of it. I instead make sure I have a regular bedtime routine so that during the day I dont sleep excessively. unless of course I have physical health problems that cause it. then my doctors help me with carious meds.

[dlantern]

I know for me that was a sign of young alters a glossy eye and indication of DID/PTSD

[cool09]

I've felt detached from myself for 40 years and think that severe depression did it to me. I felt unreal and couldn't feel myself. I didn't feel anything around me. It made communicating impossible. My depression just lifted and started to feel more attached to myself. I don't know how to get help for this. It is terrifying.

How did you know you were suffering from derealization? Did you do research?