[Colour of Madness]

I woke up this morning with a weird metallic taste in my mouth, I felt unwell in a way that was hard to discern, unsure if it was a massive amount of anxiety that had welled up into my stomach and chest or I was actually physically sick. The feeling reminds me very much of when I used to regurlarly take Lithium for Bipolar and my levels became too high and I started getting Lithium poisoning from it. I haven't taken Lithium for years now though.

Basically, I feel a bit like I have been drugged I guess, to make matters worse I found a packet of Valium lying open on my dresser with only two pills left in it, I have absolutely no recollection of how many pills were left in the packet (I only take them occasionally to help with sleep) but I feel like it would have been more than two or I'd have written down somewhere to get a new prescription... I don't think I took any last night, but why then was the packet open? If I did, how many did I take? Did I take anything else too? Nobodies talking and I cant exactly waltz up to the doctor and go "Hi, can you give me a quick drug screen, I'm worried one of my other personalities has taken something and wont tell me what it is."
We have had this happen before when we went into hospital, I found out years later that Bel had been freaking out and at some point taken a smallish OD of all the painkillers in our bag in the waiting room toilets due to anxiety but she hadn't told any of us, I spoke to the doctor and had been feeling physically fine and so when they picked it up on a routine drug screen and I had NO IDEA what they were talking about they didn't believe me, I of course denied it harder, making them take new bloods because I thought they had made a mistake, those bloods of course came back the same and made us look ridiculous...


So at this point, I don't feel horrendously unwell so if someone has taken something they shouldn't of I don't think that it would be too detrimental to our health BUT I am concerned that it has happened and feeling guilty for accusing other parts of us without proof. Does anyone else have trust issues with other parts or have any tips for dealing with them?

Thanks,
Suzi

[kecanoe]

I have had parts take too much of a prescription also. And realized it afterward.

What I do?
-it is a shout for help or attention not a serious suicide attempt
-get over being upset about it
-that part is in pain
-ask who is hurting and why
-listen
-be curious
I've done this with the help of therapists most of the time. I usually feel a need to confess what I have done and I would rather tell the therapist than a doctor. And in the meantime, I continue to work at building trust, affection, acceptance, love between parts. I think that this is the eventual cure.

[dlantern]

Sometimes alters are ready to help and will do. It involves communication and thought process that you have to try out first you can't expect it be a visual thought then it just works.....In the midst, of that someone can start something and realize I had to go and do something else inside seems incomplete as well. I make sure when aren't leading the blind make sure they share everything they can think of. On a personal level, I have to make sure I think about my pill and water bottle at my bedside like a screaming baby that doesn't want it. I have to be my own parent because there are no side effects I have to stalk it keep a consistency until someone comes up with a better fix. Be ready for the test they will consistently searching for fixes approval especially if you are system that creates again and again in the now or is wondering what keeps another part from missing something that is really important.