[Chez3]

To start off, I'm Clara. I don't want any confusion here because confusion is stupid. Anyway, I've been out a lot more recently, and I've been using the time to try and figure out what exactly is wrong with the host. I've done research and figured out that childhood trauma can cause DID, and most people with this disorder have experienced that in some way. This would make sense for Chez, as we can't remember anything from elementary school and before, but I feel like we had a good childhood. Nothing ever really went wrong, and I feel like I've hit a dead end. I think that Zemechis might know something, but he's barely out nowadays and I can't communicate with him. Even if I could, he probably wouldn't tell me anything. I just can't figure this out and it's infuriating cause idk what to do next.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Chez3

To start off, I'm Clara. I don't want any confusion here because confusion is stupid. Anyway, I've been out a lot more recently, and I've been using the time to try and figure out what exactly is wrong with the host. I've done research and figured out that childhood trauma can cause DID, and most people with this disorder have experienced that in some way. This would make sense for Chez, as we can't remember anything from elementary school and before, but I feel like we had a good childhood. Nothing ever really went wrong, and I feel like I've hit a dead end. I think that Zemechis might know something, but he's barely out nowadays and I can't communicate with him. Even if I could, he probably wouldn't tell me anything. I just can't figure this out and it's infuriating cause idk what to do next.

yea thats the way it is, the more you try and research and try and figure out whether you have any mental disorders the more confusing the problems get.

put simply there is no longer any way to know and figure out what is going on except through contacting yours or a mental health treatment provider. theres more to being mental disorders then what you can find in books and on the internet. much of which can only be found through treatment providers.

let me show you an example...

DID is not the only problem where a person can have altered personality problems...

a person with alters now can have cancer, anemia, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, MS, have an eating disorder, drug and alcohol user, Alzheimer's, depression..... gosh I could go on and on listing all the physical and mental problems that share a situation where a person has altered personalities.

and the only way to distinguish them all is not by what you find in books and on the internet, or in mental health forums. Why because there's whats now called "accompanying symptoms" these problems that only treatment providers know about and look for and test for.

bottom line you can research all you want and self diagnose with a dissociative problem and then the problem turn out to be something like epilepsy or other problem.

my suggestion is please stop trying to self diagnose (figure out what Chez' s problem is) instead contact yours or a treatment provider who does have the information needed to correctly diagnose the problems.

[rise13eyond]

We get it. We can't remember much from before the body's age of 12, and there isn't much to suggest anything really bad happened, if it did then I feel like it would have already come up. There is something we see as traumatic that isn't thought of as conventional trauma, but that's for another time.
Maybe right now not force anything out of anyone or force anyone out or to do something they don't want to, and just work with what you have. Maybe there's a reason you don't remember anything, maybe you're like us and experienced something traumatic to you but might not be to others, or maybe nothing. Regardless of which is the case, the fact is that you don't remember, so what your focus should be now is to get everyone working together and happy.

I don’t want to say that I was born this way...could I? Just for the fact that it began very young to only then be raised in child abuse which wasn’t like all that bad except for the beatings....but had very happy times as a child that I can remember...but a miserable upbringing as a whole as a parent was a terrorist all through high school....and maybe can remember maybe 5 % of life, but not even the day today...

Our favorite dog has died....but the memories are getting buried and the pain has gone in a few hours as our comforter Susie took over after the littles cried their eyes out...

So to say it’s just natural for our unnatural to exist this way, and somethings will never be discovered without professional help or with. ((Hugs))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( hugs )))))))

I wish that a-hole “professional” had attempted to listen.. in all that time.

(Sorry off topic grr.. I agree some things won’t be discovered with or without professional assistance)