horrible day...stress, missingmy so called pparents, know i am talking gibberish I KNOW I AM....my dad called me treasure, i just want him to love me, iam writing as i am feeling m therapist says its normal, is it? i feel scared because i cant stop it and i am rocking and crying and want to be back but scared abuse took place then mighty flashback........stupid to read post, triggered me........am i normal? i know im talking like not me but cant stop please help just tell me its normal or am i lying to me or what

oh well dont bother

[Perna]

You're not missing your actual parents, you're missing the way they should have been and that's very normal. You deserved love and support and nurturing, not the crap you got. But unfortunately it wasn't all one thing, there was some good words and feelings in there you want to believe. . .

that is such a good post..... yes Jinny.... I have certainly felt the way you do.. well the way I think that you do... and time makes it pass... and self nuture,,, yes... that word... is a path to feeling better.... my T is teaching me that now.. and sometimes.. when I go to bed.. out of nowhere.. I start sobbing... cause I am just letting all the pain out...

my "little" alter insisted on a stuffed monkey... and I thought.. no way.... but it does help.. it is a big old stuffed monkey and I hold onto it every night.. and it sooths me...

thankyou Freewill hon, strange my t said the same and even offered to give me her teddy that helped her through....I used to have a tatty old mouse called Mickey.....miss him....maybe I'll get another mouse....thankyou

Jin xxx

Perna you are right...I miss the parents I should have had....

thankyou jin xx

[Kiya]

((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
it's normal.
it hurts....
but it's normal.
kiya