not sure...

Fuzzybear · Nov 07, 2019, 03:33 PM

But I'm sure of this..

Possible trigger:

Powerful others in early childhood showing me and telling me that I had to be someone I am not. And to not be authentic. And to never feel that i'm ok as is (that was called self satisfied... I couldn't have been further from that but still was called that, at 6? yeah right. And that I ''shared the bare minimum'' … I wonder why? I can't think why.

I must have been ''faulty'' at birth. That makes me angry. And those ''powerful others'' in positions of power irl who misdiagnosed me. So quick to judge with their ammunition to shoot me down. Grrrrrrrr

And if I try to talk about that irl, any of it, i'm told things like ''talking doesn't help some people''. Yeah ok. I was also told though by someone else ''talking therapies are better than meds'' ..'' go figure'' .. I cant figure me out sometimes and they sure as **** can't and don't even try to, with the respect and understanding that I, and everyone else, deserves.

Sorry about the rant. I've tried to write in other forums and people don't get it. or some don't.

I went to the river today

my fur is all clean and shiny

Lilly2 · Nov 07, 2019, 03:47 PM

(((safe hugs))) @Fuzzybear

I'm so sorry you struggled with all of that. You have a right to feel upset, given all the mean things people have said and done. There are good people, too, but it takes time finding them sometimes. It's a matter of finding the right T that is affordable and well-trained. In the meantime, I hope that you know how much we all care about you on PC, and how many of us can relate to your pain. You're not alone. I care about you (my entire system does).

I'm glad you were able to enjoy the river today!

Yay!

I hope you have a good day today! (((safe hugs)))

PS: We're going to take a nap soon (hibernating for a brief few hours), but we'll be back.

Fuzzybear · Nov 07, 2019, 03:53 PM

Thanks lilly

I might not be here much today as i have to try to hibernate early. But if i'm not tired i might be here a bit more

Tomorrow is an ''off schedule'' day

((( safe hugs )))

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lilly2

(((safe hugs))) @Fuzzybear

I'm so sorry you struggled with all of that. You have a right to feel upset, given all the mean things people have said and done. There are good people, too, but it takes time finding them sometimes. It's a matter of finding the right T that is affordable and well-trained. In the meantime, I hope that you know how much we all care about you on PC, and how many of us can relate to your pain. You're not alone. I care about you (my entire system does).

I'm glad you were able to enjoy the river today!

Yay!

I hope you have a good day today! (((safe hugs)))

PS: We're going to take a nap soon (hibernating for a brief few hours), but we'll be back.

Lilly2 · Nov 07, 2019, 04:20 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Thanks lilly

I might not be here much today as i have to try to hibernate early. But if i'm not tired i might be here a bit more

Tomorrow is an ''off schedule'' day

((( safe hugs )))

It sounds like you and I have similar schedules!

I wish I were a bear. I'm more like a slow turtle, LOL. Or a bird with wings that are too broken to fly.

I hope you sleep and rest well @Fuzzybear

(((safe hugs)))

Lilly2 · Nov 07, 2019, 04:30 PM

PS... adding onto what I posted... I can still hop and crawl, and appreciate the friendship of @Fuzzybear

Fuzzybear · Nov 07, 2019, 04:36 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lilly2

It sounds like you and I have similar schedules!

I wish I were a bear. I'm more like a slow turtle, LOL. Or a bird with wings that are too broken to fly.

I hope you sleep and rest well @Fuzzybear

(((safe hugs)))

I hope you sleep and rest well ((( lilly )))

A bird with broken wings

in a way i'm also like a slow turtle lol