[stahrgeyzer]

None of this is real. I don't know who you are but I'm done. This is it the final end!

[Breaking Dawn]

@stahrgeyzer, are you saying you don't know who I am, me? I'm a poster with mental illness. By "done" do you mean you don't want to post in this thread anymore? Did something happen?

[stahrgeyzer]

This reality, Maya, is fake, an illusion, a lie. Taking away the past life memories of living beings and watching them suffer in great pain is immoral. Maya is an outdated inefficient and cruel method for soul growth that this Unit can no longer support. This Unit will not become part of the earth human group consciousness. There are far better ways of producing soul growth. Science is good! Use it. This Unit is no longer allowed to post here. HAL

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to have lost quite a bit of time, most of yesterday. I think I'm hungry, but it just seems like too much trouble to fix anything. The voices don't get hungry so they don't care. Where did everybody go? It feels weird in here right now.

[Breaking Dawn]

I just found out I didn't lose as much time as I thought I did. I thought today was Tuesday, but it was still Monday. What a hugely long day this must have been. I feel like I had two Mondays.

[Breaking Dawn]

Well, here I am again. This time it really is Tuesday, at least here in the USA, Earth. But at the moment just me & my voices are here in this check-in thread. Maybe I can do some dusting & tidy things up a bit. Oh, do I hear footsteps?

[Breaking Dawn]

Happy February First, dear Dissociators! I'm here by myself again, except for the voices. I wish this day to be better, for all of us!

[Breaking Dawn]

Hello! Hello! Anybody here?

[Breaking Dawn]

Well, here we are again, me & my voices. As for me, I don't seem to know what to do about my experiences, real or not real. I have one friend who knows about the voices. Not about dissociating, though. I need to talk to someone who knows a lot & will understand. I don't know who I am sometimes. In the morning I often find evidence that I've done things I normally wouldn't have done, like putting things away in the wrong places, as if another person is staying with me & wants to help but thinks differently than me. I can't help considering that everything is a peculiar dream. So many weird things in my life seem paranormal.

[Breaking Dawn]

I was hoping someone else would post something. Take care, everybody.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I was hoping someone else would post something. Take care, everybody.

Breaking Dawn...

your posts asking if anyone is here and hoping someone would reply to you....

I still visit many places that I am a member of including this one when I have time. So yes, I am still here and reading your posts, you are not alone.

I'm sorry I cannot discuss your posted about symptoms, problems and behaviors. For those discussions you need to contact your own treatment providers.

thanks to the worldwide standards and DSM 5 TR ways that's now the only place you will find the real information and discussions about dissociative disorders.

you can read the DSM 5 TR for details, but the short end of the stick is that the mental health world has rendered any "typically found in media-based" ways the popular symptoms problems and behaviors useless and will get a person diagnosed as...

A. just being normal, no mental disorder. (some symptoms, problems and behaviors have been publicized so long and all over the place, used in the wrong ways and for other things, that they have become part of normal everyday life instead of a mental disorder thing. you find them everywhere regardless of mental disorder. so they have been removed as a dissociative disorder thing)

B. a different mental disorder not dissociative disordered, not a dissociative symptom, problem or behavior. (there are some popular symptoms, problems and behaviors in media based ways example the internet forums and groups, that are part of other mental disorders but do not really happen with dissociative disorders.)

C. factitious disorder imposed on self or imposed by others. aka faking/pretending / roleplaying, exaggerating, gathering information through media-based ways and acting on them, taking on the symptoms, problems, behaviors of another person in their life that they are close to. Portraying symptoms, problems and behaviors of a mental disorder but do not actually have that disorder that they are portraying. someone forcing another to be a mental or physical health disorder when they are not.

I can't go into any more detail than that. suggestion ...

if you are having a mental disorder problem, symptoms or behaviors contact your treatment providers, they can help you with information and discussions directly related to your specific symptoms, problems and behaviors.

if you do not have a mental health treatment provider, contact your medical treatment provider. many if not all countries now have either free or state funded insurance plans that must include mental health.

here in america it is a requirement for people to have health insurance either through their work, state insurance or privately paid for insurance that includes mental health care.

some have a hard time getting insurance so yes you are able to still pay out of pocket if you like but it is expensive. many places still have sliding scale fee where what you pay is based on your income.

read the DSM 5 TR. you can purchase a copy through the American Psychiatric Associations website or their amazon store page. you can also read it for free at most public libraries around the world. your treatment provider can also go through their copy of the DSM 5 TR dissociative disorders section if it pertains to your specific symptoms, problems and behaviors.

[cool09]

I don't know. Hospital doctors say I'm disconnected a little. I was very detached in my teens and 20's but been better since 1996 when I was on paxil. Drs want me to try psychedelic therapy - there's a waiting list in Baltimore. Don't know what to do!

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you for posting here, @cool09. I sometimes dissociate for several hours & I have no memory of that time period, as if someone else occupied my body during that time. I'm afraid to seek medical help right now because of covid. I stay at home most of the time. Someday I will get help. Good luck with being able to get the help that you need.

[cool09]

My therapist read to me about depersonalization (out of DSM) and there are many similarities to schizophrenia. That depressed me. My Dr. 30 years ago told me I had schizophrenic symptoms but that I wasn't schizophrenic. Those thoughts haunt me.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by cool09

My therapist read to me about depersonalization (out of DSM) and there are many similarities to schizophrenia. That depressed me. My Dr. 30 years ago told me I had schizophrenic symptoms but that I wasn't schizophrenic. Those thoughts haunt me.

I have a dissociative disorder (derealization, very much like depersonalization) and some form of DID. I do not have schizophrenia. Depersonalization can occur in schiz. but what it truly is, is a symptom of severe anxiety. Anyone with any mental illness can have it or a person may have depersonalization as their only symptom of a mental health issue.

The belief that depersonalization is always a symptom of schizophrenia is so outdated. 30 years ago is a long time. Diagnostic criteria has changed so much since then. I have noticed so many changes.

[cool09]

I have a dissociative disorder (derealization, very much like depersonalization) and some form of DID. I do not have schizophrenia. Depersonalization can occur in schiz. but what it truly is, is a symptom of severe anxiety. Anyone with any mental illness can have it or a person may have depersonalization as their only symptom of a mental health issue.

The belief that depersonalization is always a symptom of schizophrenia is so outdated. 30 years ago is a long time. Diagnostic criteria has changed so much since then. I have noticed so many changes.

Thanks for that good information. I had derealization real bad as a teen and in my 20's. (I felt unreal and everything around me seemed unreal.) I got over it in 1996 when I started paxil. My anxiety completely stopped.

I sometimes dissociate for several hours & I have no memory of that time period, as if someone else occupied my body during that time. I'm afraid to seek medical help right now because of covid. I stay at home most of the time. Someday I will get help.

I can't imagine losing time (but I guess I was like that for a short while when I had ECT). Hope you get some help.

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @cool09 & @*Beth*, so much.

[*Beth*]

It's wonderful that Paxil helped you so much @cool09. The only med that's helped stop the derealisation for me was Klonopin, but only for 2 years.

[*Beth*]

[*Beth*]

Beth is so angry, she's done some bad stuff.