[childofchaos831]

I don't remember the weekend at all... I need to do some research about what happened between Saturday and this morning... I've been losing a lot of time lately and the IOP therapist is really noticing.

[Solnutty]

I’m back! I was gone for two years from this forum I think. I tried a Facebook group, but it’s not the same as this. Fuzzybear, you’re awesome! Good to see you.

wondering where all the threads has gone from the garden

namely my stories for the littles thread. was going to start adding to it again..

I'm a bit confused here, but having just arrived here and believing that this might be where I belong, I thought I'd better say hi. But how can I know? If I don't understand?

Originally Posted by extirpatealone

I'm a bit confused here, but having just arrived here and believing that this might be where I belong, I thought I'd better say hi. But how can I know? If I don't understand?

ask away

we are happy to answer any questions you may have!

welcome

[Nikdoug]

Hi everyone! I just joined today and am hoping having a support group will help me better understand and navigate my depression and dissociation. I'm ready to feel like a person again.
I'm currently taking Remeron in the evenings and Wellbutrin in the mornings for my depression but am plagued by the dissociation. Without going into too many details, almost three years ago, I experienced several traumatic events within seven months of each other including a near death experience, major hospitalization, and death of my mother. Soon after my mother's burial is when the dissociation started.
I constantly feel as if I'm in a dream. I know I'm not but it's like I'm looking at the world through a heavy fog. I'm often forgetful, lack concentration, and get disoriented.
My psychiatrist said I'm having a cognitive response to the trauma I've experienced. It has improved some over the past two years but it still persists.
Can anyone offer inspiration, advice, or self-care tips that have helped them overcome? Thank you!

Originally Posted by Nikdoug

Hi everyone! I just joined today and am hoping having a support group will help me better understand and navigate my depression and dissociation. I'm ready to feel like a person again.
I'm currently taking Remeron in the evenings and Wellbutrin in the mornings for my depression but am plagued by the dissociation. Without going into too many details, almost three years ago, I experienced several traumatic events within seven months of each other including a near death experience, major hospitalization, and death of my mother. Soon after my mother's burial is when the dissociation started.
I constantly feel as if I'm in a dream. I know I'm not but it's like I'm looking at the world through a heavy fog. I'm often forgetful, lack concentration, and get disoriented.
My psychiatrist said I'm having a cognitive response to the trauma I've experienced. It has improved some over the past two years but it still persists.
Can anyone offer inspiration, advice, or self-care tips that have helped them overcome? Thank you!

welcome- it is really nice to meet you..

anxiety's been bad over the last 24 hours

yesterday I had a panic attack over a phone call I need to make on friday (I had phone conversations, hate them), and today- as well as being anxious about that, I am anxious about a few friends who are going for coronavirus tests- which I hope go well

anxiety all round..

[Nikdoug]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

anxiety's been bad over the last 24 hours


yesterday I had a panic attack over a phone call I need to make on friday (I had phone conversations, hate them), and today- as well as being anxious about that, I am anxious about a few friends who are going for coronavirus tests- which I hope go well


anxiety all round..

Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm the same way when making some phone calls that aren't a big deal to others. For a little while, even checking emails gave me anxiety. Even though I can't make the anxiety go away, I can tell you that you're not alone. Hang in there.

lots of thoughts of previous trauma and even quite a severe panic attack

not a great start to the weekend. actually quite a horrible day

very hard day today.

panic attack, fibro pain, anger at my team, but also some calm moments too

started watching a tv drama I really wanted to start watching so that was nice.

turns out the sink was easier to fix than I intended, and it got done yesterday so no more leaks on to the floor which is good (so no more change of me slipping)

showered today.

body didn't provide much for me in the way of movement so it was quite painfull. ugg

needed too though: was quite incontinent this morning. came out of the blue, just like that.

no real plans for today: just have mcdonalds later which I am looking forward too.

it is cooler today too. I still have my fan on, but not sure I am going to need the cooling spray today

our drinking bottle has a little broken bit at the top

so now all the water spills out of the bottle

and we don't like it because we call it our baby bottle even though it's not really a baby bottle.

[lucidity11]

OMG I nearly had a panic attack trying to find this forum. I have to use my phone because my computer broke. I am a little freaked out by this effort. I am in a new apartment near a good hospital in case I have any issues. I am going to NC with my sister. I love my sister. But I am having a lot of panic. I think once we get started I should be better. I am trying to figure out who we are now. I am back in ny and recovering from cancer. A voice who I trust has said I will die when I'm 68. This voice has always been good to me like angel since I was very young. And she is always right. I think she told me to help me get through my cancer. I just believed I had more time. I am grateful. At present I am finding it difficult to commit to anything. Like volunteering or employment. I feel like I am in between this life and dying. I asked to stay to see my sister and spend time with her. It's been great. My niece has had a son to add to her family. She now has two sons and a great wife. They have a beautiful family. My son and I are on better terms. He is the reason I have gotten this far. Our energy will always be connected. I am lucky to have had this life.

[Kathleen83]

Hi Nikdoug. Learning mindfulness techniques helped me.

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be learning some new things & consequently rearranging some of my belief particles/components in order to accept these new things.

I am in pain today

I have also not slept

so it isn't a great start to the day.

I have however eaten breakfast

[Alatea]

suffering...speechless...crying...I try to be here, but I keep being pulled back into past moments, to re-live the pain again and again and again...
someone I care a lot about stopped showing up online days ago...I cannot stop thinking something awful has happened to them...it is a massive trigger, all coping mechanisms are back on, and I feel as if I am finally losing my mind for good...

Originally Posted by Alatea

suffering...speechless...crying...I try to be here, but I keep being pulled back into past moments, to re-live the pain again and again and again...
someone I care a lot about stopped showing up online days ago...I cannot stop thinking something awful has happened to them...it is a massive trigger, all coping mechanisms are back on, and I feel as if I am finally losing my mind for good...

I know it's hard.

but we are all here for you

do you want to tell us about this friend?. what do you do online. play a game?. talk?.

[Alatea]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I know it's hard.

but we are all here for you

do you want to tell us about this friend?. what do you do online. play a game?. talk?.

Thank you for being there...
It is a friend on a self-help chat.

But, all we can do for another person who suffers is be there when we can and offer a kind word, as you just did. I think I have a hard time accepting that I cannot do anything else for the people I grew attached to and care a lot about.

I can only hope that all of us who struggle can find strength within not to let go when it becomes tough, and to reach out when we feel we cannot cope on our own...