[darkpurplesecrets]

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I find myself very scared as more altars reveal themselves. They were terrified a few years back and went away into hiding. I have always known they were there, but I never let anyone else know until now.

There is a little one who is so terrified that she stands of and cries and does not go near the others. Another came out who is also little and they really do not know how to express what they are feeling.

I feel scared of them also because I do not know what to say to them as I myself am terrified as to what is coming out. So I tend to be stand-offish also. I do not know how to stop the screamer or the nameless one.

I was up most of the night last night hearing their voices and wondering if anyone else could here what was being said. It seemed so loud at times, I just knew that someone else had to have heard.

Well, I just wondered if anyone else ever experienced this and if at times yours altars get so loud that you think someone else may hear them.

Thank you for listening.

darkpurplesecrets

[pachyderm]

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((pachyderm))))

Thank you for the heart. I appreciate it.

darkpurplesecrets

if i say something in my head i often wonder if people have heard and i panic in case i said something wrong. you are the only person who has said this happens. i havent told my t about it. thankyou i am not alone.

jinnyann

[RozG]

i'm sorry i can't be of any practical help to you as i've never had that happen...but please know that i do care and i hope things get better for you soon.

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[wanttoheal]

Hi darkpurplesecrets,
I understand what you are saying. Do you have any children yourself or have you been around children? It's very hard for me to nurture myself, but if I think about what I did to nurture my children and other children, it's easier to know what to do for me.

My son just loved to cuddle when he was little. He also loved very soft things to hold onto. My daughter was more apt to color and draw and that was soothing to her. So I try to make available those types of things in case my brain needs something. I'm not always successful in making the crying inside my head lessen or the screaming to stop, but sometimes it helps.

Sometimes the noise gets so loud, I do wonder if it's coming out of my mouth. T said that when it's louder, that's when the barriers are thinner. It could be from being triggered, though probably other things factor in as well.

It's hard for me to accept the fact that I have parts of my brain that appear to be stuck in young ages. And it's hard for me to self sooth in order to comfort them (ah, I almost said shut them up, so I guess that shows how unaccepting I am at times .)

Anyway, maybe you can try that kind of thing? It's definitely worth a try.

[Fuzzybear]

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[iamtwilight]

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[BalishBun]

i am very good at listening, but unfort I cannot give a reason for you, but i can offer an ear.